TeenHelp - Entries for April 27, 2011

Changes changes changes..... 4-27-11

Posted April 27th 2011 at 07:39 PM by mano95

I just reread my last post... Melodramatic. That's the only way to describe it. I hardly even knew him... And now I have an awesome girlfriend that loves me, so it's all okay now. Okay, maybe not *all*. TOO MUCH STRESS! School, my sisters, friends. *sigh* Everyone seems to expect too much from me. I am getting straight A's, I basically raise my sisters because my mom's too busy with her boyfriend (fighting, making out... yeah...), I'm supposed to be getting a job, I'm in the National Honor Society,...

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Fight it...you can do it Charli...or not.. *Triggering

Posted April 27th 2011 at 04:24 PM by Riddikulus

Last night i just lay there, my head was spinning; screaming at myself inside my head. 'Come on Charlotte, you don't need to do this, ODing and cutting is not the only opition...your being stupid...fight it...fight it...you can do it' I tried so hard, i really did, but then there is always the other side of me, telling me to do it, things are too bad at the moment, i can't handle it anymore, no one would care....stop being pathetic...
Like I was arguing with my emotions, i can't fight the...

Riddikulus

The magic word... expelliarmus

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Helpless (trig)

Posted April 27th 2011 at 02:23 PM by Anatidaephobia

I don't know why i bother anymore with anything. I am such a mess. Just feel so helpless, useless and stupid.

Today went awfully. The first time i admit the truth and finally open up and it was just dismissed like i am lying or it doesn't even matter and i am just an attention seeking little kid. I admitted everything but the overdoses at my doctors appointment. The cutting, the starving myself, the constant thoughts of killing myself, the feeling of been so low that i can't bring

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Anatidaephobia

Smile :) You're beautiful!

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Dude.

Posted April 27th 2011 at 10:40 AM by LlamaLlamaDuck

WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED IN DOCTOR WHO?!

Yes. I only just got around to watching it. I was dragged to church Saturday night.

Spoiler:

So THAT'S why everyone's being going "Oh yeah Amy's gonna shoot the doctor in the new episode."?! Because she went and shot that kid that was in the spacesuit that killed the doctor in the future so now the kid's going to die and Amy will have to take it's place and kill the doctor in 200 years time because if she doesn't it will be changing

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LlamaLlamaDuck

Llama Lover/Skittle Minion

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Trig? Cut

Posted April 27th 2011 at 08:42 AM by Evanesco (Lost in Time and Space)

I failed and I cut last night.

I tried so hard not to but I felt like I was trying to force myself out of my body and I just had to cut. And then I gave in and I did.

There was something so relieving, so satisfying, about dragging the razor across my wrist. Seeing the blood well up, so much blood, and then cascade down my arm, over my skin.

I haven't cleaned it yet. I probably should.

My boyfriend is trying to get me to tell my mum. He...

Evanesco

Linguistics geek

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Urgh.

Posted April 27th 2011 at 06:42 AM by LlamaLlamaDuck

Supposed to be going to placement today. Actually just going for a walk till everyone's left and coming back home. Can't handle it today. Will go back next wednesday.
So tired. So fucked up. Was dreaming about cutting. About people being able to see me. I was in my old house (why do I keep dreaming about that?) and it was dark outside. I'm a little obsessive about not having gaps in the blinds when it's dark out because I panic about seeing something. In the dream, every time I fixed

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Llama Lover/Skittle Minion

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