Why is life so confusing? Why can things never be completely good? It just shows what a failure I am, I'm pathetic! I say 'oh yeah I can throw it!' and everyone's expecting me to chuck it miles and win my miles and what do I do? Come third! Fucking third! I've won every year apart from today! And that's not the worst bit! I came 7th in Long Jump! I mean 7th is completely crap! I mean worse then crap! I mean SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT! I'm meant to be sporty, I'm meant to do well at this, I'm meant...