Perhaps when I leave home things won't be so bad. Perhaps, instead of destroying myself, I could just get help straight away? Perhaps I'll finally be able to find someone who will listen.

It's not likely though. Why do people ignore me? Why won't people help me even if I go to them for help? Why am I on my own?

Why do I feel like I can't face anything? I can't just do things because I have no motivation. Even the things I want to do. Because I don't really want to do anything. I just want to sleep. Sleep forever.

She's bang out of order, how dare she make me feel guilty to the point of crying that I don't want to be an optometrist. If I don't want to do it then I shouldn't be made to feel guilty!

Everyone changes their mind, I don't even need to have a job in mind at this age. Urg she's a fucking bitch! As if I'd let her work for me, I don't want to see her again and af if I care about getting a job?

I don't plan on living that long anyway! She hasn't a clue about me, sometimes...

I really want him to stop with this, stop with the paranoia and thinking i am going to cheat on him. I would never hurt him like that, i love him too much.
Can't he treat me with respect for once and not take everything out on me, I hate the bruises and the pain.
He asked me if i loved him and when i said yes said he didn't believe me; if i didn't love him would i put up with all of his crap and even though he has hurt me so much still be here if him no matter what!?
He...

I'm going to a summer camp thing for the weekend, Debbie wants me to be more social. It's called "Summer Sunshine Fun Camp" Jesus Christ, More like "Hell on Earth". I begged her not to make me go, But she said it would be good for me. So "I can make new friends". She's trying to kill me, I swear. Do they even let you smoke at summer camp ?
Oh and I was looking at the forums and She made a question about me:\ I wasn't sure wether I should say something or not....