Saw the CPN today. Feels like it was kind of pointless. Mum came with me and she'd typed out a list of stuff she wanted to talk about so that really helped. And she explained a lot of things for me which was also good. But apparently my almost obsessive habit of checking the contents of everything I eat and being able to see rolls of fat where apparently no one else can is just me being a normal teenager. In fact, just about everything I mentioned is me being a normal teen. She didn't listen, just...

I did it.
Like little red lines, they go across my upper thigh. I hate it. Just looking, I'm disgusting myself. It feels like my only way to relieve stress, and when I do it I can't feel it. Like I am gone.

I know there are other ways to get rid of this pain. I am going to try them, I have to stop letting this get the best of me...
I'm going to tell my boyfriend tomorrow. I a, going to show him the scars. I hope he accpets me still I know I will cry, I know I...

so i wasn't sure if i had a minor depression or anything..after reading an article in a magazine it hit me that maybe i did. I have been feeling really low for awhile and nothing really triggered it. I stopped hanging out with my friends and got really stressed out a lot over homework and studying. I would study for 4 hours just for a quiz because i needed to get a 100. I always wanted to be perfect because thats what people expect from me. My depression has died down a little and i don't cut myself...