Reasons to Live:

• Football
• Friends

Reasons to Die:

• I hate Life
• Find every day harder
• Good for nothing
• A waster
• Destined for doom
• Selfish
• Hopeless

I'm trying to stay positive i really am it's just so hard. Want to OD and Cut so badly

Wish i didn't feel so alone. Wish i could just open up but i won't let myself not after last time. Just struggling on my own; but I'm not going to let myself get hurt or let anyone else get hurt again. Besides i don't deserve friends. I deserve to be on my own and alone forever, i'm a horrible excuse of a person.

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