Didn't sleep well last night. probably got like 3 hours. I normally get like 7 hours. so im really tired..
I just cut again. I didnt even try to stop myself this time. Didnt see any point in trying not to. It doesnt stop me. Now i have to think if i want to lie to every one again. I probably will. I'll just get in more trouble if i tell the truth.

Today i've just lied in bed, been online, and cut. Im so pathetic. I don't have enough energy to get out of bed. All i want...

Someone called me wonderful today.
I have fell like dying and cutting all day.
That made me me feel a tiny but vetter. Just enough not to harm myself.

Thank you. <3

My mom said that if I ever self harmed again, she'd put me into inpatient therapy because I have "no reason to self harm" and, well, of course she thinks my suicidal thoughts are exaggerated.
But, I've been thinking.

No, the thoughts haven't gone away like I said.
I've lied to my therapist about the last time I've self harmed.
The therapist is already suggesting I see a psychiatrist, and is going to talk to my mom about this next time I see her.Once she does,...