I just want to die. Curl up in a little ball and die. Everything is just too much.

Every commitment I have is too much to deal with.

I'm hungry. I want to eat. My stomach hurts I'm so hungry.

Why can't I bring myself to eat?

I'm hurting.

Woke up about four times in the night, once with a really bad stomach ache and the rest because my ears and head were really hurting.
When I got up this morning my head was hurting so badly i wanted to cry and i stood up and fell over.
The medication just makes me feel weird and sick and sleepy.
I want this all to go away.
I really need a hug :/

Well, today was a bad day. Mom yelled at me a lot again. Things were finally peaceful, but it was only a short reprieve.

She yelled at me for so many things that were stupid, and not even my fault. I don't want to go into it too much. However, there was some good in my day. Jon stayed on the phone with me later than usual, and we reminisced about some things in our relationship. Strangely, we reminisced most about the time he was in the hospital. It was our hardest time together,...

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Some days i want to live my life, and others i don't get why im here, and want to die. Today was the latter. People and things at school almost made me cry, almost walked out of class because tears threatened to come. I can't do this all day tomorrow. I can't do this ever. Im making plans again.. Why won't this end?


I think i'm gonna tell all my friends at school tomorrow that i don't want friends anymore. i need to be alone before i die....