15 Advil. I feel greatly. 1 am. Not even tired.

I really don't want to school, I don't think i can face it, the whispering and pointing and giggling... I'd rather be at home and then i can cut myself open and make the pain go away.

I want them to go away, to leave me alone..

Just keep breathing, keep moving forward... it might get better....
Keep going...keep going... i'll probably never make out the other side though >_<

SO I'VE BEEN PLANNING TO DO THE NATIONAL DAY OF SILENCE FOR ABOUT 3 MONTHS NOW. WHO'S WITH ME?
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When I read this article how these young kids defined the word LOVE, it makes me think as we grow older we tend to make everything in our life, not only love, become more and more complicated until at one point we don't even understand what is love and how it is supposed to be.

This reminds me how simple sometimes a love can be. When you look at your partner, recall again all those feelings and remember all the things that made you fall in love with him for the first time. And look...

Okay. Sooo.. haha. I've been with you for 4 months.. honestly, hardest 4 months of a relationship, ever. You're like obsessed with me. We argue all the time. You blow up my phone when I say I wanna go...

I just want out. But, I can't. There's something keeping me there. And, it scares me. I honestly don't know what would happen if I did leave. And, I pray to God it's not what I think.

Please God, just help me though this. I try to be a good person. I really do. So,...

Crashing back down, everythings hurting again, I really need help right now :/

I'm sorry mom, I can't help it. I'm sorry i'm not as clever as you want me to be and i'm sorry that i'm letting you down.
You don't know how much i want to make you proud but you're never pleased with anything i do. He just gets in the way, he's ten and your amazing child, i'm sorry i'm not as amazing as him. I'm an idiot.

I'm never going to make you proud >_<