I'm sorry things can't be different, I'm sorry I'm so useless, so stupid, for being me.

Pills and more pills and really, who's going to try and stop me.....

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TeenHelp Newsletter #28 - July 15th 2012 - http://www.teenhelp.org

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It's been so long since I posted a blog, nearly a month. I am doing... Ok I think. I was on vacation for about 10 days, and in the middle of my vacation I got really depressed and suicidal. It hit all the sudden, and I didn't know how to handle it. But luckily one of my friends was amazing and supportive. I am so greatful I had someone to talk to. I am feeling so much better. I'm not suicidal anymore. I thought I was going relapse with cutting but I distracted myself. And I am now a bit past 2 months....

And so disorganised. It's so hard going from the structured environment of hospital back to home, where there's absolutely NO structure. I've been thinking I should have chosen to go into respite instead, but it's already been done now.

I can't impose my own structure in the environment because there's too many other people and life here is just so . . . messy. It's bad for me. It's bad because I find it really hard to sustain recovery/wellness when my life has no structure. So moving...