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I'm mostly okay right now. (Mild trig in some spots?)
Posted June 22nd 2015 at 12:07 AM by Ennui.
I've felt okay. Work has kept me pretty busy. My routine on the weekdays has become something like, wake up, go to work, come home and take a nap, wake up from nap to eat, then go to sleep soon after. It doesn't really give me much time to feel bad. Before I started work I felt suicidal, so I guess being kept busy is okay. I have had some triggers, but I've been mostly okay I guess. I do have my days. I also like all my coworkers so it's nice to joke around with them and talk. The job though, don't like so much, but I do like the pay.
It kind of feels weird to feel this level of okay. I'm almost used to the feelings of either being depressed or anxious, I'm not used to this and I kind of miss it in a weird way? I dunno.
The one thing I am unhappy about is the considerable amount of weight I've gained. I feel horrible about myself and I'm just so fat. A lot of my clothes aren't fitting right. Ughhh.
It kind of feels weird to feel this level of okay. I'm almost used to the feelings of either being depressed or anxious, I'm not used to this and I kind of miss it in a weird way? I dunno.
The one thing I am unhappy about is the considerable amount of weight I've gained. I feel horrible about myself and I'm just so fat. A lot of my clothes aren't fitting right. Ughhh.
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If you're doing physical labor, you may be gaining weight from muscle. Remember the emphasis on health over weight numbers. I'm glad you're doing okay. I can relate that it can feel weird. Try to not think too much of it though and enjoy the moments of being okay. Also you can try taking 20 minutes a day to have "me time" so you don't go the whole summer not doing anything for yourself whether it is reading a book or any hobby really. Take care Dez
Posted June 22nd 2015 at 12:54 AM by Not_here
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I agree you're probably gaining some muscle which is good because then you'll be stronger! :hehe: I also understand where you are coming from when you say you feel used to the negative feelings, but you should hold on and enjoy the positive feelings and try to make them last. I hope the rest of your summer goes well, but hopefully even better than it has so far! As always you know where I am if you need anything! :)Posted June 22nd 2015 at 02:37 AM by Thereishope
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You're a lovely person the way you are and if you have gained weight then you can lose it in a healthy way! I hope you are okay and if you want a chat, you know where I am. Keep that chin up!Posted June 22nd 2015 at 05:38 PM by Palmolive
