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I'm losing myself. *trig*
Posted June 29th 2012 at 01:38 PM by escape♥
How do I even explain what's racing through my head right now? Never good enough, never deep enough, never thin enough. Cut. Cut. Cut. Slice myself up. Cut deeper than ever before last night. You could see the fat of my thigh in the cut, and yet, it doesn't hurt anymore. It even started healing, and I hate it. I WANT to feel the pain..does that even make sense? Probably not. 
I doubt anyone will even read this.
I'm sorry, I'm just rambling nonsense. Never lost enough weight, never cut deep enough, never fucked up enough. Going to see my therapist today. That's good I guess. Part of me doesn't want to get better though. I don't know why....................................
Cut. Cut. Cut. Slice myself up.
Binge, purge, starve. Binge, starve. Binge binge binge. Starve you fat whore.
Cut cut cut cut.
So exhausted.
Ugh.
I doubt anyone will even read this. I'm sorry, I'm just rambling nonsense. Never lost enough weight, never cut deep enough, never fucked up enough. Going to see my therapist today. That's good I guess. Part of me doesn't want to get better though. I don't know why....................................
Cut. Cut. Cut. Slice myself up.
Binge, purge, starve. Binge, starve. Binge binge binge. Starve you fat whore.
Cut cut cut cut.
So exhausted.
Ugh.
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Hey buddy
I'm sorry you feel like this. Ik what it's like not wanting to get better but sometimes you have to do it for other people. If you need someone I'm here <3Posted June 30th 2012 at 03:49 AM by Agony
