Somewhere too far for us to find
forgotten the taste and smell
of the world that she's left behind.

I don't know where I am. I feel like I'm stuck at a dead end with nowhere to go. I need to get out of here for a while. But everyone seems so set against me studying in England. My tutor thinks I'm not well enough. My dad thinks it's stupid.

Met with Shona and Ann this morning. Was a waste of time. Shona kept saying that I'm not well and need to get better before I can do another course at college. I told her I want to move to England to study psychology and got a lecture on how pointless that would be.
I've already decided I want to go. I need to get away. I need to live my own life the way I want to. I'm sick of taking the safe option. I want to take some risks and benefit from them. I really think I could do better when I'm

365 days and 19 hours ago I honestly thought I'd never wake up if I fell asleep.
I can't believe it was a year ago. It doesn't feel that long since I wanted to die. At the same time, feels like this has been going on forever.
If I had died, I wonder what would have happened.
If it had worked, I wonder who'd have noticed.