Really freaking sharp stabbing pain in my chest.
God.
Fucking hurts.
I lay down and it was like like "Oh wow my bed is so com- *STABBA* MOTHEROFDONKEYSHITTITWANKBOLLOCKS! "

Almost crying with the pain.
Couldn't breathe.
Still hurts but not as much as it did and not as constant. Just like little sharp stabs. Is okay when I'm sat up. Scared to lie down.
Making me panic.

Really not in the mood for a hospital visit tonight....

Posting this from my sexeh new netbook which I am completely in love with.
Living room is a mess. The walls and ceiling are all a dark brown colour with big patches of really really pale pink. Kind of like skin colour. There's a lamp and table/chairs in the corner. Two armchairs and a sofa sat in the middle and a tv in the corner. There are no curtains and the wires for the TV are poking out everywhere. Hopefully in a few months we'll have a nice white ceiling, painted walls, new couch,...

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I've been doing a lot of thinking today. And my girlfriend is right, sometimes there are people you're in contact with or friends with, or even just people you see around facebook or whatever, who aren't good for you. Even if you don't realise it at the time.
I came up with an idea earlier of putting my life into a book and kind of integrating it into a fictional story. I may or may not change the names but it's a way for me to be brutally honest about people, both good and bad, from a third...

I have to leave for college in 20 minutes. It's taken me the past almost half hour I've been up to make myself get dressed and ready.
I can feel it happening again. Started thinking of different ways to get out of college. Still am. But I can't.! SAAS haven't even approved my course funding yet. And they've moved the required attendance up to 95% which is ridiculous.
I thought it'd be better this year. Because I actually like the course and how much freedom I have over it. There's...

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Saw the CPN today. Feels like it was kind of pointless. Mum came with me and she'd typed out a list of stuff she wanted to talk about so that really helped. And she explained a lot of things for me which was also good. But apparently my almost obsessive habit of checking the contents of everything I eat and being able to see rolls of fat where apparently no one else can is just me being a normal teenager. In fact, just about everything I mentioned is me being a normal teen. She didn't listen, just...