I am in a bad place right now.... I keep thinking that I am a complete failure for not being able to finish what I started. Twice. Twice I survived when I shouldn't have. I don't know anymore if I want to be here anymore. I love this site because I can post anything and nobody will judge me.... I just need to vent I guess. It's late and I can't sleep and I am going crazy inside my head. I just don't know what to do anymore. All I know is that I don't really want to be here much longer. The only...

I am trying so damn hard. I can't take this. I'm supposed to be recovering?! If I could find my damn razor, I would cut myself. I have been cut free for how long now, and as soon as I want to do it, I can't. I am tired of hiding everything from everyone I know. Especially my wonderful, loving boyfriend. I HATE hiding things from him. We have been together for 2 years and 6 months, and yet I hide this from him.
Plus, he leaves in less than 2 months for Marines basic training and then...

So, I was addicted to cutting from 7th grade until 11th (I just ended my Junior year), but in January I went to the hospital for trying to kill myself. I went again in March because the week I spent in January didn't do much good and I tried to kill myself again, but this time I asked for help before I cut too deep. I have ugly scars all up and down my arms and legs and I hate them. I haven't cut since April, though, which is a big thing for me. Over the past few weeks, my dad and I have been...