Lately life has seemed to have won. I have had setback after set back after set back and each time it seems harder to get back up and smile. I now have nobody in my life who will listen and I just want to give in and stop trying.

Getting offended.

It's where everyone is
Getting so butthurt
Over almost every little thing,
Whether it'd be over people,
Or even something
As controversial as politics.

Then, when someone gets offended,
They have to whine and cry
Like someone killed their dog,
And act like entitled little bitches
That are entitled to every little thing.

The easily offended
Are the easily manipulated....

I dont know, I need more music inspiration for music. So what 10 songs are on your playlist at the moment?

Mine are:

1) Papa Roach ft Machine Gun Kelly: Sunrise Trailer Park
2) In This Moment: Rib Cage
3) In This Moment ft Brent Smith: Sexual Hallucination
4) Papa Roach: Live This Down
5) Somo: Or Nah
6) Tove-Lo: Talking Bodies
7) Three Days Grace: Misery Loves My Company
8) The Offspring: You´re Gonna Go Far Kid
...

It’s today! In half an hour I’m heading to my rheumatology appointment. I’m trying not to get my hopes up. I keep telling myself that they’ll just tell me nothing is wrong. Even though I feel like this pain isn’t normal. The physiotherapist gave up. She was obviously relieved when I told her I had a rheumatology appointment because I didn’t have to be her problem anymore. She did her usual thing of pressing on my back, which did nothing but make me jump away from her hands and try not to yell out...

it's been awhile since i've been genuinely scared because of a dream. i used to get so scared of nightmares i would wake up crying, but that was when i was a kid. now, of course they still scare me, but i can wake up and know that it's not real.
this one felt real, though.

i had a dream that i was just sitting, at some formal party, with nice table cloths and rich people in fancy clothes. suddenly a man in a suit came over to me and he was holding something big. he just stared...

It's been over 3 months now ever since what happened with him...

It's been difficult...it really has been. I know that I have to live with the choice I made for the rest of my life, but I keep wondering...

What if there comes a time where he just calls me out of the blue and wants me back as his friend?

I've played that scenario many times in my head, both what it would look like over the phone, or if he saw me in person and sought the opportunity to...

I smoke.
I smoke from ciggerates to weed
Please don't tell me this is wrong cause I already know.
I know that it will kill me.
And I know that smoking isnt the best way out for my problems.
Guess what?
So isnt cutting.
I know that what I do isnt the best way.
Please don't tell me this is wrong.
I have hate in my heart, but I have love on my mind
It is a battle everyday
From wanting to light another one up
And then...

I'm sure we've all felt this way
At some point in our life.

Sometimes, it can be
The little things
That just blows a fuse in us,
And causes us
To react out of emotion.

It could be something we read,
It could be something we heard,
From someone who we came across
Either in person or on social media,
It could be something we witnessed,
It could be something so small
Such as a missed ride,...

I am here today to honor someone that I lost.

My older brother died. He was killed by his ex girlfriend. My brother is 6 feet under, killer is in prison, brothers´ girlfriend who was gonna be his fiancee is an a mental institution and my nephew, I have no idea where he is.

My older brother, (im gonna use his zodiac sign for his name) Taurus, died on January 6,2017 at 9:39 pm.

He lived for almost sixteen years.

I miss my brother so fuckin...

Suicide...

The one thing that today's youth
Struggles with the most,
And happens more often
Than most can ever imagine.

People often misjudge these individuals,
Labeling them as "out of their mind"
And at the same time,
The people condemn them
For thinking such thoughts.

But have people ever really bothered
To set aside their incompetent ignorance,
And actually really learn
...