Saw my doctor again yesterday. She eventually printed off a prescription for some fluoxythingy I can't even pronounce. At the time, I told her I didn't mind if she put me on meds. But now I don't know.
At night, all I can think is fat, ugly, disgusting, pathetic. Can't do anything right. Failure. So stupid you're failing a course you shouldn't even be doing because it's academically below you.
I keep asking myself why I'm still alive. I really don't know.
Was half dreaming,...

So todays been one of those days again. Everything is going wrong. I just want a hug and to be told everythings going to be ok. I miss my friend like hell. I still can't get over the fact she's not here. I need her right now more than ever theres so much going on i can't handle on my own. I would do anything to have her back. I just feel so lonley and useless. Maybe there right i should just die. I know it should be me who dead and not her sometimes lifes just not fair. Sometimes i wonder why i...

Life is a struggle and sometimes no matter how hard it is we have to let go, not just for us but the people around us. Sometimes it means doing what is best for the people we love and not nessesarily ourselves. Sometimes it may mean giving up on things you feel you need really badly; giving up doesn't always show weakness, sometimes it just shows your strong enough to let go.
I just wanted to share some quotes about moving on;

'Sometimes the cards we are dealt are not always...

Ha okay daily journal isn't going very well6 days since the last one.


I will try

So, today was an alright day. Didn't do squat, once again. What a 3-day weekend, right? Blah. Right now, I'm watching American Dad, laying in bed, and wearing my boyfriend's shirt. Why I felt the need to say that, who knows? Anyways...I am hoping to make new friends on here. (Random thought --->) Time is kind of flying by. I am 16 already. I am graduating next year. I got nominated to be in a scholarship program. I get my license in April. My 2 year anniversary is coming up in May. Shaq (the...

WOWWW! It has been a LONG time since I have been on here. But here we go...My crying has been under control until just recently. (That's another story.) My boyfriend and I are doing alright, could be better, but no relationship is perfect. We have been together almost 2 years. Hopefully I can get some money and we can do something together for our anniversary. School os going quite well actually. I get to graduate early, and I just recently got nominated for a scholarship program by my principal...

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So the girl i love says shes single, then she says shes taken, then she says shes single. I ask her friend to check and she says she has a boyfriend. But the girl i love says she is single. I love her so much! And now she won't talk to me! UGH! Why can't we just be together? I feel like ugh just dying...

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Was talking about weddings last night. Realised that if I were to ever get married, one person I'd want there, one person I know wouldn't judge me if I married a girl, is the one person who can't be there.
People always say that time heals all wounds. But how much time does it take? It's been nearly four months and I still can't look at photos or think about it without crying. What will it take to stop it?
Knocking back the vodka until I'm dizzy and giggly is all I can do. It doesn't...