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and its over

Posted June 23rd 2010 at 04:36 PM by Sin

u finally done it...8 years later u broke me once and for all.

congradulations u win

fucking bastard

Sin

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Reality sucks

Posted June 17th 2010 at 02:50 PM by Sin

dk.zghsilaadfioagjksdghiogkjohidsgihsdgjodg

^^^^^this is how i feel^^^^^

Sin

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Happy happy happy!!!

Posted June 11th 2010 at 03:54 PM by Sin

I never in a million years thought i could look forward to the weekned this much

NO COURT TILL MONDAY

To say im happy is the biggest understatement ever!!! I miss this..i miss this feeling of being happy. I no its only for 2days before it all starts again but damn it im going to enjoy these 2 days!!!!

Fri night: PJ party! Popcorn, pizza's and pjs! Friends marathon all night with the coolest people ever..i love it!!!!

Saturday:...

Sin

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losing hope

Posted June 8th 2010 at 09:40 AM by Sin

Still waiting. went to court yday. still waiting. legal arguments still going on. so im still waiting. 2moro the jury will be picked. im running out of courage. each minute that passes makes me wanna run away all that much more. Its hard. so hard. giving up would be so much easier.

175 Days

I really wish u would hug me

Sin

*pixie in training*

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No choice

Posted June 4th 2010 at 04:35 PM by Sin

So ya.
decision made.
wasnt so hard after all.
I will give them what they want.
No matter what the cost to me.
They dont care.
So i will talk.
then i will leave.
after i give my evidence.
i wont have a family.
i wont have friends.
i dont want them.
they made their choice.
so i told them i would do this.
then i will leave them.
they dont belive me.
but i will.
i will never forgive them.
they

...

Sin

*pixie in training*

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Triggering: So what

Posted June 3rd 2010 at 12:55 PM by Sin

So i cut. And cut. and cut. Coz im stupid. So im going to keep cutting. Whats the point in trying? Just makes me feel worse when i fail. and i will fail. Coz secretly i dont really want to succeed. Maybe if i self destruct enough my family will give up on me. I think they already have. But they need me now so they will pretend they care until i do what they want. What will happen to me then?

Im angry

Im sad

Im lost

IM HURTING SO DAMN MUCH...

Sin

*pixie in training*

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Fade Out

Posted June 3rd 2010 at 09:20 AM by Sin

Bad night. feeling so weak. tired. Lonely. Just want to fade away. Dont want to be here. Sick of feeling like this. Im falling.

170 Days

Sin

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UGH

Posted June 2nd 2010 at 10:05 AM by Sin

I dont want to go.
I dont want to do it.
I dont want to see him.
I dont want to be strong.
I dont want to be brave.

I want to curl up.
I want to back out.
I want to banish hs face.
I want to be weak.
I WANT TO GIVE UP

Sin

*pixie in training*

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Triggering: One last hug

Posted June 2nd 2010 at 08:34 AM by Sin
Updated June 2nd 2010 at 05:03 PM by Prozac (Adding triggering prefix.)

169 Days today since u last hugged me. 169 days since i last saw your face. 169 days of heartbreak. 169 days without my best friend in the whole world.

Today at 9:45 we should be getting on that plane and going on holidays. Me and you.

169 Days
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since u tied that rope around your neck and gave up on life
169 Days ago you gave up on us

Sin

*pixie in training*

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Her only friend

Posted June 1st 2010 at 11:41 AM by Sin

Holding on not letting go. loving the feel of the small metal object she hugs it to her chest. Then a someone knocks. She rolls down her sleeves slowly carefully not disturbing her work. Gripping it closer she puts on a smile and answers the door. A few well placed questions and answers and the door closes again. She whispered to the wood 'please come back please save me' but no one comes.

Her eyes are fighting against her. Trying to close, betraying her. No!!! She looks again at the...

Sin

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