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A dream never dies, the dreamer does.
Posted August 27th 2010 at 10:41 AM by Sin
I feel like writing. Have no idea what to write though. Things are flying through my head so fast i cant catch them and put them into words. Tired. Im so tired. Pups cant me up half the night, or maybe i kept them up? Maybe i just wanted company. I dont no. I dont no whats going on. Ive a headache. Maybe coz i cant really remember the last time i ate. I have therapy in like 2 hours. Cant go. I really cant. Im wired. Too much lucozade sport too little food. Too much crazy little things going on.
I tried to tell myself i was going to be happy. I did try. I think i tried. I done all the right things. Everyone told me to move on. So i moved on. Now im sad. No not sad, im lost. Ya thats it. Im at a loss. No idea what to do with myself. I wish i could go back a few years. God that would be great. Im slipping away i think. I dont think i really care. No i do. But its just so hard to fight back so i think i just wont care.
My nephew is starting 'big' school on monday. I cant believe it. Everything is moving so fast. So fast its making me dizzy. And im at a standstill. Still in the same place i was in years ago. Still the same fucked up stupid fool. At least a few years ago i had some hope that things would get better. Bullshit.
I tried to tell myself i was going to be happy. I did try. I think i tried. I done all the right things. Everyone told me to move on. So i moved on. Now im sad. No not sad, im lost. Ya thats it. Im at a loss. No idea what to do with myself. I wish i could go back a few years. God that would be great. Im slipping away i think. I dont think i really care. No i do. But its just so hard to fight back so i think i just wont care.
My nephew is starting 'big' school on monday. I cant believe it. Everything is moving so fast. So fast its making me dizzy. And im at a standstill. Still in the same place i was in years ago. Still the same fucked up stupid fool. At least a few years ago i had some hope that things would get better. Bullshit.
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