I wonder why people feel like this. This... uneasy feeling. Tightness in the chest. Tears rolling down faces.

I wonder what causes people to doubt reality.

I doubt reality. At this moment, I wonder why I even have friends. Why I have my amazing boyfriend. And these things are but a few of my doubts. Do my friends really care? Does my boyfriend really love me?

Wait, maybe it isn't reality I doubt. Is it me?

Story time.

So...

I feel so anxious right now. I don't know why, but it sucks. I'm terrified that someone is going to come in and just start yelling at me, or afraid that people are going to leave my life. Have to do what it takes to keep calm and get through the day. Hopefully my anxiety gets better.

So my mom just came in, yelled at me for being locked up in my room, and then said that we'll both "get through this together". Bullshit. She also threatened to send me back to RiverCrest or make me move in with my biological dad. Like she doesn't want to deal with me. I don't give her any problems and I try to keep my schoolwork in check, but she doesn't see. Then she goes and lies to me TWICE about me seeing my friend on Friday, and then about me being a community mentor on here. She...