Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Kate*]

This is damage you did validated by truth and circumstances. I'm done.

This is either a reaction to all the crap they kicked up installing the AC or the beginning of a cold that's going to hold on forever. Worst timing ever plus meds mean I can't take anything for it.


Great, at least 6 hours of driving to an unfamiliar place and now it's going to be raining all day and on my worst day of the month no less. Still worth going, but really wish at least one of those things wasn't happening.

Life is kind of shit right now. Not sure why though. Things are going relatively well.

[Phantom_Girl]

I wish I know how to fucking drive. I can't stand having to take the bus or the train or ask people for rides. I feel like I'm a fucking child every time I say I don't have a license. I missed out on so much because I couldn't drive there. I want to be able to drive so bad but I'm terrified and I know I won't be any good. I'm so scared.

[nothereanymore]

I hate anniversaries.

[London_grace]

I'm having a hard time sleeping. I hope I can get a lot of sleep tonight.

[nothereanymore]

Shit doesn't change. Not when you're 20. Not when you're 41. Not when you're 52. Rest in peace, Chester Bennington. I'm sorry.

How can I forgive you if you go to that party? If you willingly go to a party hosted by a man who did nothing when I was assaulted? You're going to support that? And you're going with a guy I previously dated, who you swore you had no interest in, who I've been trying to reconnect with and here he is texting you all the time? And you're obviously texting back, since he told me you were talking. "Oh, I'm not looking for any casual flings." Bullshit. If that's true then why the fuck are you texting him, potentially going to the party with him? You know you felt conflicted and unfulfilled after the last one, so why would you go again?

But mostly, most of all...why would you go when you know what happened?

I thought you were my sister. I thought you were my friend.

How can you?

I wish I weren't struggling so much.
I wish I didn't feel so alone.
I wish I wasn't so scared of everything falling apart.

[nothereanymore]

This hurts this hurts this hurts so much

[Storyteller.]

Sad things keep happening but I don't have the energy to be sad so I'm just kind of feeling... nothing, really.

[daisy_jam]

I'm listening to sad songs. I'm alone. I wish I could get help. I wish I was brave. I wish I had a tiny light of hope.

All of LP's songs doesn't seem the same anymore. I'm so angry in a way.

I swear to God, if you call me sweetie I will chew you the fuck out.

[Everglow.]

Hate myself.

[London_grace]

I can't believe that you said that to the vet and to dad. You don't get to talk to people like that, I get that he's your cat, but everyone is just trying to help your cat be ok. What is your problem?

[Kate*]

There's a good chance we're driving 3 hours each way for nothing!

[oddity]

I don't know what's going on
I know who I am and I don't know at the same time
and I don't know where everyone else is

[nothereanymore]

When the crisis text line doesn't respond <

[Calaer]

I hate how hot it is!!!

[London_grace]

Breathe and be calm. My sister drives me crazy and I hope it stops soon.

[Kate*]

I can't wait until we get our lives back.

[Calaer]

I hate how hot it has been outside lately. I'm so ready for fall.

[Kate*]

I think the meds are making me gain even more weight than I already had before I started them. I need to lose, not gain!

I don't know which part of it was worst, and it's still literally EVERYWHERE! I don't even know anymore, I'm seriously done.

[Lumos.]

I'm so done. I'm sick of this yoyoing between wanting to be better, and wanting to be dead or struggling. I almost just want to give up.Also why did my phone fucking die, I was gonna reach out to someone but now i can't

[Fanatic]

I hate feeling alone. I think Im having withdrawal symptoms of being on the internet too much I need to be distracted or my mind goes crazy. Hearing others' issues has made me depressed and I feel suicidal...I dont know..

[Calaer]

I shouldn't have put off all the house work until today, and I know it. It's my fault I feel so overwhelmed trying to get everything finished before Jordan's Friend's come over tonight.

[nothereanymore]

I'm gonna get fireddddd

[daisy_jam]

I'm so fucking lonely

Could you do me a favor and shut the fuck up? That'd be fantastic. Thanks.
Oh, and, uh, go fuck yourself.

[nothereanymore]

if I had blades I'd cut right now

[Kate*]

You know what you did, and so does He. I'll let Him deal with you after He helps me rebuild my life after the irreparable damage you did.

PLEASE STOP telling me how amazing the thing I wanted to do is. I should be doing it too, but I'm not the one who decided I can't.

I feel so anxious and sad. Friday I have my appointment. Hopefully that goes well.

[nothereanymore]

I'm not okay.

[Kintsukuroi.]

It's two in the morning and I can't sleep and have to be up by 4:30/5.

[London_grace]

I tried talking with my sister and that didn't work. So I will try my parents next.

[Calaer]

I hate how hot and miserable it is outside. Bleh!!

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I wish he never passed away from cancer. I feel so sad now and I don't know what to do.

[Kate*]

I can't think of a bigger waste of time considering that I was already doing all of this. Even if I'm blowing 18+ hours a day on Facebook, I'm working through my shit at the same time. I want out, but I think it only lasts until January.

[Everglow.]

I'm shattered. Always doing the most at work and I rarely get recognition for it from managers. If it wasn't for a select few colleagues reminding me I'm good at this and pushing me to do well I'd be so done by now.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I feel like crying. I hurt so much.

[Kate*]

"You can't change the system, but you can change your attitude towards it." breeds complacency and acceptance of the unacceptable. This is how horrible things stay horrible. There's a better way, spend your time finding it rather than forcing yourself to be okay with something when you aren't.

You know exactly what you did even if I still can't make sense of it. This is why I believe in Karma. He's a harsher judge than I ever could be and while I will have to face my own wrongdoing, so will you.
He knows the truth and that's enough for me. I know I'm supposed to "be the bigger person", but for now this is all I can manage.