Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Lunar]

I wished it wouldn't have rained as much as it had today.

[fairyviolet75]

OMG WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY IS TRYING TO PUT ME DOWN OR SOMETHING IT'S JUST REALLY HARD RIGHT NOW LIVING AS SOME OVERSENSITIVE PERSON WHO DOESN'T SHOW WHEN THEY ARE SAD OR ANGRY WHENEVER SOMETHING GETS SAID I MEAN I'VE TRIED TO NOT TAKE THINGS PERSONALLY OR LET GO BUT IT'S JUST SO HARD. I ALSO FEEL LIKE THEY JUST WANT TO MAKE THE FACT OBVIOUS THAT THEY ARE SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME AND THAT I SUCK OR SOMETHING IDK WHY IT JUST FEELS THAT WAY. I JUST KEEP FEELING LIKE NO ONE UNDERSTANDS AND GETTING SAD OVER AND OVER EVEN WHEN I KNOW IT'S WASTE OF TIME. THE MOST FRUSTRATING THING IS I'VE LITERALLY STOPPED TRUSTING PPL I CONSIDER RUDE BUT THEY STILL MANAGE TO HURT ME JUST COS I'M SO SENSITVE. I FEEL LIKE THIS IS MORE OF MY FAULT THAN THEIRS JUST BY BEING BORN SENSITIVE I JUST WANNA RUN AWAY WHICH I HAVE ALREADY DONE A COUPLE OF TIMES SO ITS GETTING OLD ARGH

I'm tried, not a lot of sleep last night.

[Lunar]

Rain rain go away! We want to go play!

My anxiety is bad again. What am I going to do? I'll take more medication I suppose.

[Everglow.]

Thought I'd have something to look forward to soon but never mind.

[nothereanymore]

Yes, because I don’t do the dishes and that’s the chore you do more often than anyone else, I’m a leech. I know you can’t wait to get rid of me. You’ll be so grateful when I’m gone. bet you wish she’d stayed and I’d fucked off to another state and died instead

You are such a selfish, goddamn, motherfucking idiot. How could you do this to us? Your own family. You didn't even tell us yourself! We got a message forwarded to us from your poor soon-to-be-ex wife, who, by the way, we all feel you ROYALLY fucked over in this entire situation. You say you're not running away but I call bullshit. You're running from your family because you know that we won't stand for your crap. You're a coward. So go. Go to Columbia, or wherever else in the world you want to go, but in the end I think you'll end up regretting it. At least I hope you do.

I'm your fucking Big Sis, remember? Who is going to be my little bro?

I want to self harm so badly tonight. I am probably going to go take my medication and try to sleep. Need to stay safe.

[Kate*]

I suppose I'll have to call tomorrow then and deal with this AND the cat dying at the same time?! I hope I NEVER have to do this again with you!

[nothereanymore]

This is gonna be so hard. I have no money.

[nothereanymore]

Wish I was asleep

[Lunar]

I hate the fact that it's snowing in April. It's spring time for us. We went from 79, warm and sunny, to 52 and snowing. WHAT'S GOING ON.

[TraitorBaby]

I want something so much more... I wish I knew what true love felt like, I've only ever seen it..
I wish I didn't have to wait for you. I wish I knew where you were. I wish so badly that you were here with me. No, thehat I was with you and away from here. For the love of god please come find me.

[Kate*]

I know it's time and that you're suffering, but I don't want to say goodbye

[Celyn]

I feel sick again. I had the answers now its a weird mess, it makes sense and it doesn't. I just need time and space.

PTSD sucks :/

I've done nothing all day and I know things are going to get worse before they get better.

I don't feel ready yet

[Everglow.]

Had a good day today. And then for some reason my mood dropped and now I'm too tired to do anything so while 6 other people.played games tonight I sat in silence. I hate myself.

[TraitorBaby]

God why would you punish me for exercising why

I haven't read all day. I am so tired of not being able to read. I am close to my goal but it's so much shorter than last years!

[Kate*]

I miss you already and I'll love you forever. I wish you could visit me from the other side of the rainbow bridge

I can't fail.
Failure isn't an option
I am going to end up trapped
I am going to end up miserable.
Please get me through this.
I am just stressed out because of tomorrow.
I get through and then I can start studying.

[nothereanymore]

Can’t wait for people to pay more attention to my dead twin than me on my birthday and then tell me I’m selfish for that. I need this day to suck a little less than LITERALY EVERY OTHER DAY. Just today. I’m still here. Yes, give her love. But don’t forget me.

[Mirabelle]

Stop kicking your football against our wall you mindless little git!

[Celyn]

Tired. No sleep. Feel sick. Can't even read properly I read reality check and snorted like yeah that's what I really need...this is insane and it sucks because I can't be bothered to fght.

Having really negative thoughts. Please let me get through today!

[Celyn]

So what is going on? How do I know this is all real? I feel like I shouldn't leave.

[Mirabelle]

There are times when I would dearly love to throw my phone into the toilet. Never stops ringing! Usually it's aunty fritting about something insignificant. She should get a life. Like sipping beers while enjoying tapas in Majorca's beautiful weather.

Glad I'm back in England for a while with Mandy. Getting some peace.

I am struggling. Please let this all work out.

[nothereanymore]

“If given the choice she would’ve stayed” no she fucking wouldn’t have you dumb bitch. You think you know everything. You think you knew her so well. Where do you get off saying shit like that, pretending she was fucking fine? You’re so melodramatic and I know I shouldn’t resent your emotion but I FUCKING DOOOO

[Celyn]

I'm scared and xopd

[nothereanymore]

Idk man. If I were a psychiatrist and one of my clients, who’s mentioned in past appointments that she’s suicidal, missed an appointment, I’d be calling and checking in. How did ten days go by without anyone checking in at all? Also if I were a therapist I wouldn’t let so much time pass without checking in either. We haven’t had a session in a month and a half and that’s becajse I haven’t set a new one up but if I’m not being proactive that’s a problem that should be addressed. I need these people because I can’t help myself. And yet, they’re falling asleep in the backseat and telling me to drive. So helpful. Wow.

[Celyn]

It actually sounds fun falling asleep in the backseat lol

[Nala.]

I can't be getting sick right now.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I'm better off dead than alive. No one cares. If I disappeared, not a single person would care. I'm a burden.

[Mirabelle]

Damned emotional terrorists! They kick me when I'm down and do it time and time again. Four times now. And they expect me to reply "all's forgiven"? Go away. Just leave me alone.

[TraitorBaby]

So help me God I will never live with you. God please give me strength.

[Fanatic]

Why is it that when she joins for something that you have to play favorites? Love you and all but it fucking pisses me off really. This is what is annoying about people is that they play favorites and I get picked last? Was I not the one who spent the most time with you so why am I last? It doesn't make any fucking sense really.

Two interviews so close together...what if I fail them all!!!!!!!! I suck at this. I am confident, I can do this, I want this but what if they don't want me?

[nothereanymore]

Too broke to live, too broke to work.

[Kate*]

It was a long shot and it came too late, but I DID send proof of that, academics had NOTHING to do with it, and you are in NO position to decide what is "severe enough!" I guess I'll be paying decades longer than I thought.