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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 1st 2018, 06:18 AM
I’d be suicidal even if I were all you had. Don’t ask me to stay for you. Don’t ask me to stay just because she died. That’s not fair. That’s not how this works.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 1st 2018, 07:08 AM
My life is missing something, but I'm afraid adding anymore to it will make me even more of a burden to you. And you wanted me to get another job yet complain and have to juggle shit around just to get me to the one I have!
This shit right here is why I ignore you. You need to stop taking things so personally (which I know is hard because I used to do it) and learn to let things go!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; February 2nd 2018 at 03:48 AM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 2nd 2018, 03:25 AM
It’s painful for me to sit or lean on anything that’s not soft because my bones are sticking out. But I can’t complain because I brought this upon myself.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 2nd 2018, 05:37 PM
my RHR is too low. my blood pressure is too low. my vitals are all out of whack and I’m terrified but I’m still not skinny. I’m not even thin. I don’t have an eating disorder.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 2nd 2018, 06:27 PM
Awesome. I am a failure.
I know they probably were considering me for the position... but I didn't get it ... so that consideration doesn't matter.
I have another interview coming up so I'll just have to be sure to tailor the questions to the position...but IDK. I feel defeated. I am going to end up homeless.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 4th 2018, 02:04 AM
Why the fuck does it feel like people are against me at my work? I feel terrible as fuck right now yet im still working. I definitely hate people and being around them right now. I just want to be alone right now...4 more hours to go
"I'm not a piece of cake for you to just discard
While you walk away with the frosting of my heart
So I'm taking back what's mine, you'll miss
The slice of heaven that I gave to you last night." - "Cake" by Melanie Martinez
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 5th 2018, 12:48 AM
I feel so broken.
NOTHING is appealing to me. I have been reading a fair bit but the books bore me and I find myself skimming a fair bit.
Maybe I'll go watch a show. I have been wanting to watch the Handmaid's tale. The concept of trying to watch tv doesn't appeal to me either
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 5th 2018, 12:09 PM
I love waking up to you screaming and cussing. It’s the best. Really.
I feel for how unhappy you must be to act like this all the time. You’ll never learn. You don’t even care to.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 6th 2018, 01:27 AM
Applications are still going to make me anxious, but I probably won't even hear from them, it's more part-time, and I feel like transitioning into a second field gives me a better chance when I'm ready to get out of retail. I don't know if you realize that I don't plan on quitting my job. Most people there carry two or even three jobs and if Medicaid is going to be this big or a pain in the ass every year, I'd rather make enough money to not qualify at all, but that means I'd be paying for everything out of pocket.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; February 6th 2018 at 09:03 PM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 6th 2018, 08:58 PM
I shouldn't have agreed to going tonight. I don't know too many people that are going to be there. I suppose it will be okay. I can be social for an hour or two and head home?
idk ... kind of want to ditch but I can't do that because I already committed
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 10th 2018, 01:41 AM
So, apparently I picked the absolute wrong day to pay a loan off because this happens to be the weekend where the system is behind itself and it wants to make me think I owe $600
This is EXACTLY what I was afraid of by the way. Not only do I acknowledge that I'm not perfect, but I think we become just like the group we ran from if you start doing this.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; February 10th 2018 at 03:51 AM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 10th 2018, 04:51 PM
Suggest a little personal responsibility and get attacked. Make a point against victim-blaming, get removed. Yeah, this is TOTALLY different then what we ran from.
Weekend shifts are the absolute WORST. I might have to take one off again.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Re: Screaming thread. -
February 10th 2018, 07:42 PM
I feel like I'm not allowed to eat anymore. If I eat, then I gain weight. If I gain weight, then I'm not actually sick. If I'm not actually sick, then I really, really don't deserve help. I can rationalize getting sicker because it means I'm deserving of help, but isn't the purpose of help is to get me healthy again? I realize that it's not that I'm irrational, it's that I'm unreasonable. My rationalizing skills are perfectly sufficient, it's the reasoning ones that need work.