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Forum: Self Harm May 26th 2018, 08:28 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

7 months, 3 weeks, and 5 days
Forum: Why Me? May 18th 2018, 02:33 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm headed downhill. I don't know how to handle anything, I don't have a therapist, and I don't feel that I can talk to my fiance about things anymore. maybe I am better off dead. this life isn't...
Forum: Self Harm May 18th 2018, 02:15 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

7 months and 13 days.
Forum: Self Harm October 4th 2017, 07:06 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Three days.
Forum: Why Me? October 2nd 2017, 06:50 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

Well fuck. I messed up. I didn’t even mean to do it, it just happened... everyone would be disappointed. I already lied about it too, so I can’t tell the truth. i hate myself right now
Forum: Self Harm October 2nd 2017, 06:48 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

A few hours... I was at 8 weeks. fuck
Forum: Goals and Ambitions September 29th 2017, 04:59 PM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

Start reading my book
Finish off math for this week (and maybe get some extra done.
Do some notes for biology
Go grocery shopping
Forum: Why Me? September 29th 2017, 05:26 AM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,093
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I said one wrong thing and I ruined my girlfriend's good mood. Go me, now I feel terrible too
Forum: Good Days! September 29th 2017, 05:25 AM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

I had a pretty good birthday, which is abnormal for me. Especially better than my last birthday which I spent at a psych ward
Forum: Self Harm September 27th 2017, 07:00 AM
Replies: 247
Views: 19,593
Posted By Lumos.
Re: How are you beating self harm? Vol 2

A lot of deep breathing, and trying to distract myself
Forum: Self Harm September 27th 2017, 06:58 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Eight weeks. school may change that though
Forum: Why Me? September 27th 2017, 06:57 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I can’t do this. Fuck. Why must mental illness be a thing? What if I can’t make it through college. It’s only the second day and I’m having a new symptom. What the fuck
Forum: Good Days! September 26th 2017, 07:03 AM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

Made it through my first day of college. Unscathed, go me
Forum: Self Harm September 26th 2017, 06:58 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Seven weeks and six days
Forum: Goals and Ambitions September 25th 2017, 04:00 PM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

Get through my first day of college
Read at least 50 pages
Do my school work
Finish watching finding dory
Use deep breathing to calm self
Forum: Why Me? September 25th 2017, 03:58 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

Fuck this, school has been a trigger for me. why am i here again. I do't know if i can do this
Forum: Why Me? September 25th 2017, 03:56 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,093
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Today is the first day of school. I wanna be lazy... And my girlfriend is not handling school well and we've only been here an hour
Forum: Self Harm September 24th 2017, 02:35 AM
Replies: 247
Views: 19,593
Posted By Lumos.
Re: How are you beating self harm? Vol 2

Staying busy (reading, being on TH)
Being with my girlfriend
Forum: Self Harm September 24th 2017, 02:18 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Seven weeks and four days
Forum: Why Me? September 24th 2017, 02:14 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

Why do I feel like shit? I hate feeling dizzy....
Forum: Good Days! September 24th 2017, 02:10 AM
Replies: 467
Views: 23,781
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What have you accomplished today?

Almost finished a book (hopefully will finish tonight)
Found out who the advisor of the nursing program is
Went to urgent care
Watched some youtube
Forum: Goals and Ambitions September 21st 2017, 10:22 PM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

Do 2 things that are productive
Possibly read some
Relax
Hang out with my girlfriend
Not to purposefully trigger myself
Forum: Self Harm September 21st 2017, 09:49 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Seven weeks and 2 days.
Forum: Chit-Chat September 21st 2017, 09:48 PM
Replies: 1,285
Views: 107,394
Posted By Lumos.
Re: The "Wow! Look at my post count!" Thread

3,101! Yay its only taken 6 years
Forum: Games and Things September 21st 2017, 04:50 AM
Replies: 2,372
Views: 60,253
Posted By Lumos.
Re: TPBM game.

False.
TPBM has an interesting pet
Forum: Education and Careers September 20th 2017, 11:58 PM
Replies: 19
Views: 2,771
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Are you honest about your mental health at work and school?

For me, at school, I have always disclosed about my mental health to a counsellor and some of my teachers. Now that I am in college I will be disclosing it to the accessibility resources people so...
Forum: Goals and Ambitions September 20th 2017, 10:45 PM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

1. Get some school work done since I need to start off college on top of things
2. Maybe read a bit (try to focus)
3. Get ready for work
4. Go to work
Forum: Good Days! September 20th 2017, 01:00 PM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

School begins today. I can do this.
Forum: Why Me? September 20th 2017, 12:59 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

It's too early to be awake.
I hate feeling like I'm getting worse. It feels like impending doom. I don't want to go to a hospital again....
Forum: Games and Things September 20th 2017, 12:57 PM
Replies: 3,644
Views: 82,319
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Count to 50 before a Moderator posts.

........Twelve!!
Forum: Self Harm September 20th 2017, 05:09 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 2,958
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Cutting again because I wanted the scars back?

I'm kind of in the same boat right now so I completely understand. It's hard to see scars/want more and not give into the urge. But I can say from experience that even when it does leave a permanent...
Forum: Self Harm September 20th 2017, 04:45 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

7 weeks. Urges are getting worse though
Forum: Self Expression September 19th 2017, 10:00 PM
Replies: 11
Triggering (SH): How's that for a tiger?
Views: 839
Posted By Lumos.
Re: How's that for a tiger?

I really like this. The imagery of the colors was powerful. You're talented. :hug:
Forum: Games and Things September 19th 2017, 09:57 PM
Replies: 5,197
Views: 158,607
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What was the last TV Show/Film you watched? :)

Movie: some b horror movie called patchwork
Tv show: teen wolf
Forum: Games and Things September 19th 2017, 09:55 PM
Replies: 3,644
Views: 82,319
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Count to 50 before a Moderator posts.

Nnnnnnnnniiiiiiiiinnnneeeee
Forum: Why Me? September 19th 2017, 09:49 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,093
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I'm so fucking numb.
Also why am I getting worse
Fuck
Forum: Why Me? September 19th 2017, 09:18 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

It's supposed to be a good day and yet my mental illness figures out a way to get into my head. why do I want to die again?
Forum: Good Days! September 19th 2017, 09:07 PM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

After a rough day yesterday I woke up this morning and it has passed. So far no bad urges.
The sun always rises
Forum: Goals and Ambitions September 19th 2017, 03:00 AM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

Its a bit late but i want to watch some of the show i've been watching with my girlfriend
Maybe try to read for a bit
USe skills
Forum: Self Harm September 18th 2017, 11:12 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

6 weeks and six days. fuck its getting harder
Forum: Self Harm September 18th 2017, 11:03 PM
Replies: 247
Views: 19,593
Posted By Lumos.
Re: How are you beating self harm? Vol 2

Today I am trying not to purposefully trigger myself... not sure how that'll go.
I'm also being on TH for a while and trying to delay the urge
I'm with my girlfriend so if the urge gets worse and...
Forum: Why Me? September 18th 2017, 10:39 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I almost tried self harming yesterday at work, like I was looking for something to do it with. what the fuck. I wish I had found something and actually done it. maybe I wouldn't feel as shitty today...
Forum: Good Days! September 18th 2017, 10:35 PM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

I have a day off today, and I get to go to the beach with my girlfriend for my birthday tomorrow.
Forum: Self Harm September 6th 2017, 04:16 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

I'm at around 6 weeks now, for cutting at least. Hitting and scrating not so much, maybe a day or so. Really triggered to cut though.
Forum: Why Me? July 28th 2017, 06:44 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

My biggest problem in trusting people is lying, and of course what the fuck have I been doing to the person I love most? Lying of fucking course. I hate myself right now. I'm not gonna come clean to...
Forum: Self Harm July 28th 2017, 06:37 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

I would love to say 6 months and some odd days but I'm at a week and 4 days
Forum: Goals and Ambitions July 24th 2017, 05:21 PM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

Go to work, actually do things to help myself when i'm struggling, and be honest
Forum: LGBTQ+, Sexuality and Gender Identity July 24th 2017, 05:11 PM
Replies: 882
Views: 91,292
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What is your sexuality and gender identity?

This is the fifth time i've posted in this forum, but I think this time it is the answer for quite a while, these things feel like they fit me.
Agender, demisexual, and gay
I'm in a long term...
Forum: Why Me? July 24th 2017, 01:12 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm so done. I'm sick of this yoyoing between wanting to be better, and wanting to be dead or struggling. I almost just want to give up.Also why did my phone fucking die, I was gonna reach out to...
Forum: Self Harm July 24th 2017, 01:02 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

It was almost 6 months. Now i'm at around 1 week..

I'm a fuck up
Forum: Self Harm April 18th 2017, 04:54 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Probably around 4 or 5 months
Forum: Games and Things April 17th 2017, 09:36 PM
Replies: 5,197
Views: 158,607
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What was the last TV Show/Film you watched? :)

I watched a disaster movie called Behemoth yesterday
Forum: Games and Things April 17th 2017, 09:34 PM
Replies: 3,644
Views: 82,319
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Count to 50 before a Moderator posts.

this makes four
Forum: Why Me? April 17th 2017, 09:32 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I just want to scream. the voices are getting more and more fucking powerful and it's so hard not following what they say. I feel like i'm trapped on an island all by myself with only the voices to...
Forum: Good Days! April 17th 2017, 09:25 PM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

i'm happy today because i start my job tomorrow and i will start making money for my big move.
Forum: Goals and Ambitions April 17th 2017, 06:08 PM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

-Fix my bike
-Do physical therapy exercises
-Dont go insane
-Take a shower (its sad this is one of the hardest...)
Forum: Goals and Ambitions October 9th 2016, 03:26 AM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

since its night time I will have one for tonight and one for tomorrow
- Get some school work done
- Lessen urges to self harm
Forum: Why Me? October 9th 2016, 03:25 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

FUCK I need to be doing school but i can't motivate myself
Forum: Why Me? October 9th 2016, 03:24 AM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

I need to lose like [Edited]. if i do it healthily will people still call me out and say its my eating disorder?
Forum: Good Days! October 9th 2016, 03:22 AM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

I got to babysit my favorite girls today
I got a new coloring book
I get to see my girlfriend tomorrow
Forum: Self Harm October 9th 2016, 03:05 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Scratching: a few hours
cutting: a month i think
Forum: Self Harm May 5th 2015, 03:24 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

I think it's been about a month. :)
Forum: LGBTQ+, Sexuality and Gender Identity April 21st 2015, 03:05 PM
Replies: 882
Views: 91,292
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What is your sexuality and gender identity?

Well this has changed quite a bit over the years that i've been on TH, but for now this is what I think I am. I finally feel like myself.
I am Agender (no gender), asexual and romantically...
Forum: Self Harm February 26th 2015, 03:07 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

3 weeks and 4 days...
Forum: Goals and Ambitions February 26th 2015, 03:00 PM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

-Eat all 3 meals without a panic attack
-Try not to have a panic attack at school
-Don't self harm
-Have a good time with my friend
-Be honest with therapist
-Get some school done
Forum: Why Me? January 18th 2015, 06:18 PM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

Today has been my worst day since i've been out of the hospital so far..
Forum: Good Days! January 18th 2015, 06:16 PM
Replies: 1,489
Views: 50,302
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What have you achieved today?

Got up and took my medication. thats about it
Forum: Self Harm January 18th 2015, 03:45 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Around 8 hours now. whoops
Forum: Self Harm January 16th 2015, 04:14 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

15 days. longest i've gone in quite a few months.
Forum: Self Harm January 4th 2015, 06:16 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

I think its 3 days..
Forum: Self Harm November 26th 2014, 10:14 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

A little less than a day.
Forum: Self Harm November 10th 2014, 12:56 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

I think its around 2 and a half days.
Forum: Why Me? November 8th 2014, 09:53 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

Feeling like i'm just a bother to everyone recently.. it would be so easy to give in to everything at this point.
Forum: Self Harm November 8th 2014, 09:46 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Less than a day.. /:
Forum: Friends and Family November 8th 2014, 09:45 PM
Replies: 39
Views: 3,038
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Do your parents know about TH?

I don't think my parents know, i'm sure they've seen it on my laptop screen but have never questioned it luckily.
Forum: Self Harm November 7th 2014, 01:50 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

About 10 minutes.
Forum: Why Me? November 6th 2014, 10:21 PM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

I'm having a really difficult day.. i feel like shit
Forum: Why Me? November 6th 2014, 12:03 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

Feel so fucking alone. I've lost a grand total of 4 friends this year.. I wish I was gone.
Forum: Self Harm October 20th 2014, 05:23 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

4 days i believe
Forum: Games and Things October 17th 2014, 10:44 PM
Replies: 160
Views: 8,188
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What was the last thing you said?

Do you want to go outside?
This was to my dog... yep i haven't really talked to anyone out loud all day
Forum: Chit-Chat October 17th 2014, 10:32 PM
Replies: 1,285
Views: 107,394
Posted By Lumos.
Re: The "Wow! Look at my post count!" Thread

3,254 getting closer to the thing saying "Outside, huh?" yay
Forum: Why Me? October 17th 2014, 06:01 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I have absolutely no motivation for anything, and I feel so shitty. I honestly don't think i've ever felt this bad. fuck
Forum: Fashion and Style October 17th 2014, 05:59 PM
Replies: 1,525
Views: 47,962
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What are you wearing?

A Fall Out Boy tshirt, sweatpants, and my dads hoodie XD
Forum: Self Harm October 17th 2014, 05:57 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

2 days....
Forum: Self Harm October 16th 2014, 08:58 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

And back to around 12 hours...
Forum: Why Me? October 16th 2014, 03:07 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I can't handle this tonight, already been triggered all day and now i'm feeling like a million times shittier..
I wish that no one cared anymore..
Forum: Goals and Ambitions October 15th 2014, 06:38 PM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

-Don't cut.
-Don't push all bad thoughts down
-Do some school work
-Relax
-Do dishes
Forum: Games and Things October 15th 2014, 05:02 PM
Replies: 442
Views: 15,645
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What are you thinking?

i need to keep going, its getting harder but i have to try for her..
Forum: Why Me? October 15th 2014, 04:45 PM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

its only 11 am and i'm so fucking triggered, more than i've been in a while..
Forum: Self Harm October 15th 2014, 04:42 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

i believe 10 days now..
Forum: Why Me? October 5th 2014, 10:00 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I miss my best friend so much, i wish they could just let her out today.
i've cried so much this week that its not even funny
i just wish i was gone...
Forum: Self Harm October 5th 2014, 09:54 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Almost 2 days.
Forum: Why Me? October 3rd 2014, 10:55 PM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

Anxiety has been really bad today
I miss my best friend
Forum: Self Harm October 3rd 2014, 10:46 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Not even a day...
Forum: Good Days! October 2nd 2014, 05:13 AM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

I actually some what believe that I matter to her which is a huge step for me.
I lost weight (mostly healthily)
Forum: Why Me? October 2nd 2014, 05:10 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

So my best friend is in the fucking psychiatric ward and you try to pry into her business? No, just because I tell you one detail about my personal life doesn't mean we're fucking close.
I feel...
Forum: Self Harm October 2nd 2014, 05:02 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Somehow a week now... so triggered though
Forum: Why Me? September 28th 2014, 03:39 AM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

Tomorrow is my birthday... ugh can I just skip it.
I still feel like an absolute piece of shit even though my best friend is saying the nicest things..
Forum: Good Days! September 28th 2014, 03:37 AM
Replies: 1,489
Views: 50,302
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What have you achieved today?

-I didn't cut
-I ate
-Got out of bed
-Did some homework
Forum: Self Harm September 28th 2014, 12:52 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Day 3 somehow
Forum: Why Me? September 25th 2014, 02:29 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

She's pushing me away and i'm fucking terrified. Also I have to be alone for all of thursday night and all day friday, that is probably not going to end well
Forum: Self Harm September 25th 2014, 01:40 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Annnd back to one.
Forum: Why Me? September 24th 2014, 12:03 AM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

so worried and she's pulling away, been sitting here crying for a while..
Forum: Self Harm September 23rd 2014, 11:34 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

3 days....
Forum: Why Me? September 23rd 2014, 04:12 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I know she meant for what she said to help but now I just feel guilty and even worse... i feel like i'm drowning
Forum: Self Harm September 23rd 2014, 02:35 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

2 days surprisingly
Forum: Self Harm September 22nd 2014, 01:21 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

A little over a day....
Forum: Self Harm September 20th 2014, 08:01 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Like 5 minutes. that was the second time today...
Forum: Self Harm September 9th 2014, 11:59 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Day 3.. need to stay distracted
EDIT: Never mind..zero
Forum: Why Me? September 9th 2014, 01:31 AM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

I'm really fucking worried about my friend, worried that i'll wake up and she'll be gone..
Forum: Self Harm September 9th 2014, 01:07 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Two days....
Forum: Self Harm September 7th 2014, 04:43 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

It would've been 89 today but, now its one.
Forum: Games and Things August 30th 2014, 10:05 PM
Replies: 413
Views: 13,888
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Count to 50 before a staff member posts.

onnnneeeee
Forum: Food and Recipes August 25th 2014, 11:56 PM
Replies: 5,337
Views: 195,205
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What's for dinner?

Green chile enchiladas so excited XD
Forum: Self Harm August 25th 2014, 11:54 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

75 days but i really wanna give in..
Forum: Why Me? August 25th 2014, 05:52 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

really triggered tonight... getting super panicky because of that, fuck. thats when i give up and relapse normally...
Forum: Good Days! August 24th 2014, 02:50 PM
Replies: 1,489
Views: 50,302
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What have you achieved today?

So far i've eaten breakfast and gotten out of bed thats an accomplishment for me lol
Forum: Good Days! August 24th 2014, 02:49 PM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

I don't feel overwhelmed by school even though I have quite a bit of homework.
Forum: Games and Things August 24th 2014, 02:46 PM
Replies: 442
Views: 15,645
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What are you thinking?

I'm thinking that I need to get homework done today and that I need to go to the store
Forum: Games and Things August 24th 2014, 02:45 PM
Replies: 413
Views: 13,888
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Count to 50 before a staff member posts.

ffffiiiiiivvvvve :D
Forum: Why Me? August 24th 2014, 02:35 PM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

I don't feel well. and i'm already tired of school..
Forum: Fashion and Style August 24th 2014, 02:30 PM
Replies: 1,525
Views: 47,962
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What are you wearing?

Blue yoga pants, and a super soft grey jumper. :)
Forum: Self Harm August 24th 2014, 02:29 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

74 days.. or 10 weeks 4 days
Forum: Self Harm August 23rd 2014, 03:09 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

73 days. honestly don't see myself making it much longer
Forum: Self Harm August 19th 2014, 10:27 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

69 days. One more day until 10 weeks. i can do this...
Forum: Why Me? August 19th 2014, 03:44 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

so triggered. trying to stay distracted..
Forum: Self Harm August 18th 2014, 01:18 AM
Replies: 1,676
Views: 70,484
Posted By Lumos.
Re: How are you beating Self Harm?

Music and youtube
Forum: Self Harm August 18th 2014, 01:16 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

67 days. or 9 weeks 4 days dont think i'll go much longer
Forum: Why Me? August 18th 2014, 12:28 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I've gotten really bad again and somehow have managed not to cut, but oh how i want to.. i'm trying
i'm really fucking afraid that one of my friends killed herself, because she wasn't at school on...
Forum: Self Harm August 10th 2014, 02:52 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

59 days or 8 weeks 3 days..
thats longer than i've made it in over a year. :) small victories are all that matter to me right now
Forum: Self Harm July 31st 2014, 04:57 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

holy shit. 7 weeks.
Forum: Why Me? July 28th 2014, 05:14 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

so fucking triggered, really want to relapse
Forum: Self Harm July 28th 2014, 04:55 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

6 weeks and 4 days. super triggered though..
Forum: Good Days! July 25th 2014, 01:44 PM
Replies: 1,489
Views: 50,302
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What have you achieved today?

I got out of bed when my alarm went off.
(Last night) I didn't cut.
Forum: Why Me? July 25th 2014, 01:42 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I really don't want to see you at school again. You told me that you cared about me and that we'd talk and you've ignored me, again.
Forum: Self Harm July 25th 2014, 01:38 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

44 days. :)
Stay strong everyone. :hug:
Forum: Games and Things July 24th 2014, 06:18 PM
Replies: 4,871
Views: 148,123
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What are you craving?

Starbucks XD
Forum: Goals and Ambitions July 24th 2014, 06:18 PM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

Have some sort of caffeine
Have a good lunch not just an apple
Don't cut
Stay busy
Read some more of my book
Shower and get ready
Babysit
Forum: Why Me? July 24th 2014, 06:16 PM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

My stomach hurts and i really don't want to get off my computer to shower and get ready.
Forum: Good Days! July 24th 2014, 06:14 PM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

I'm happy that TH is back
and that i get to babysit tonight.
Also that i'm in a fairly good mood today. :)
Forum: Self Harm July 24th 2014, 06:09 PM
Replies: 1,676
Views: 70,484
Posted By Lumos.
Re: How are you beating Self Harm?

I've been either making myself be around people, listening to music or watching youtube
Forum: Self Harm July 24th 2014, 06:08 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

I believe its been 43 days now or 7 weeks 1 day. :)
Forum: Self Harm June 8th 2014, 11:19 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

24 days. Dunno if i'll make it any longer but oh well
Forum: Why Me? June 3rd 2014, 02:50 AM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

I was doing okay until I realized that all my friends are gonna ignore me this summer.
also really triggered right now
Forum: Self Harm June 3rd 2014, 02:48 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

18 days.. Its starting to get difficult
Forum: Fashion and Style May 28th 2014, 11:25 PM
Replies: 1,525
Views: 47,962
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What are you wearing?

Shorts and a blue plaid button up
Forum: Food and Recipes May 28th 2014, 11:08 PM
Replies: 5,337
Views: 195,205
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What's for dinner?

Going out for sushi tonight :)
Forum: Self Harm May 28th 2014, 11:01 PM
Replies: 1,676
Views: 70,484
Posted By Lumos.
Re: How are you beating Self Harm?

Recently i've been listening to music and just trying to keep busy really.
Forum: Self Harm May 28th 2014, 10:59 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

13 days now. :) My goal is to make it the whole summer, lets see how this goes
Forum: Self Harm May 20th 2014, 04:23 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

4 days now..
Forum: Goals and Ambitions May 16th 2014, 11:58 PM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

Rest of day:
Relax
Don't cut.
Eat dinner
Read
Forum: Good Days! May 16th 2014, 11:55 PM
Replies: 1,489
Views: 50,302
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What have you achieved today?

Got out of bed
Finished 2 and a half paragraphs of essay
Talked to people at school
Forum: Why Me? May 16th 2014, 11:53 PM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

I feel so low and just numb
want to cut so badly..
was doing okay for a while but not anymore
Forum: Self Harm May 16th 2014, 11:47 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

18 hours now...
Forum: Self Harm May 15th 2014, 12:03 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

10 days... or a week and 3 days. i really want to
Forum: Good Days! May 13th 2014, 03:42 AM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

I am happier than i've been in months. I feel like myself again and it feels really great. :D
Forum: Why Me? May 13th 2014, 03:38 AM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

It fucking snowed yesterday and today.. I am having drama with friends, and the advice that i've gotten is what i know is true but dont want to admit it. And this week already feels like its been...
Forum: Self Harm May 13th 2014, 03:28 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

8 days or a week and a day. :)
Forum: Fashion and Style May 6th 2014, 10:12 PM
Replies: 1,525
Views: 47,962
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What are you wearing?

Right now i am wearing a fall out boy t shirt, and shorts but i will soon be wearing a blue shirt with a black skirt for my choir concert
Forum: Why Me? May 6th 2014, 10:06 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

You are making me so fucking confused. I know you'll probably just hurt me again but I miss you. I just want to be your friend again, you understood me, you were there for me and you were just nice....
Forum: Self Harm May 6th 2014, 10:00 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

2 days....
Forum: Self Harm May 5th 2014, 03:49 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

2 weeks and one day... so triggered though
Forum: Games and Things May 5th 2014, 03:40 AM
Replies: 413
Views: 13,888
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Count to 50 before a staff member posts.

Onnnnneeeeee....
Forum: Why Me? April 26th 2014, 04:06 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I've realized whats one of the worst feelings, knowing that someone who you used to be closest to is slowly pulling away and what used to be long texts and late nights is now distant conversation and...
Forum: Self Harm April 26th 2014, 04:00 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

1 week....
Forum: Self Harm April 23rd 2014, 05:03 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

4 days.. maybe i can make it to a week
Forum: Self Harm April 22nd 2014, 01:42 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

2 days......
Forum: Why Me? April 19th 2014, 10:10 PM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

I wish i could tell everyone sorry but its too late now.
Forum: Self Harm April 19th 2014, 01:19 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

3 days... already triggered so probably not for long
Forum: Why Me? April 17th 2014, 04:54 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

Thanks, say you really wanna hang out this weekend then when I ask again go ahead and just ignore me. I thought you wanted to see me, maybe you hate me like everyone else..
Forum: Good Days! April 17th 2014, 04:52 AM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

I tried on a dress at the store and I had to get a way smaller size than I expected :)
Forum: Self Harm April 17th 2014, 04:44 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

One day...
Forum: Why Me? April 14th 2014, 03:41 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

Yeah thanks mom, calling yourself a fucking lunatic then telling me i'm a liar. I was already having a fucking bad day as is. thanks..
Forum: Why Me? April 12th 2014, 02:48 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

I am so triggered right now and i've felt like shit all day. seems like i'm just bugging anyone i talk to
Forum: Good Days! April 12th 2014, 02:45 AM
Replies: 1,489
Views: 50,302
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What have you achieved today?

I haven't cut yet, and I went to the doctor and apparently came off as a person who was sane
Forum: Games and Things April 12th 2014, 02:44 AM
Replies: 4,871
Views: 148,123
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What are you craving?

I want Tea all the sudden
Forum: Self Harm April 12th 2014, 02:41 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Two days..
Forum: Self Harm April 10th 2014, 01:47 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

About 9 hours..
Forum: Self Harm April 10th 2014, 03:18 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Three days now.. triggered again
Forum: Why Me? April 8th 2014, 09:27 PM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

homework, and just feeling shit
Forum: Goals and Ambitions April 8th 2014, 09:22 PM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

Rest of the day:
-Do homework and don't get distracted from it
-Watch some youtube or shows
-Don't cut
-Don't cry
-Remember to eat dinner
Forum: Self Harm April 8th 2014, 09:18 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

2 days... I cam do this
Forum: Why Me? April 7th 2014, 10:30 PM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

I have a headache, i burnt my hand on accident today, and i have a shit ton of homework tonight.
Forum: Good Days! April 7th 2014, 10:26 PM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

I'm still quite happy that my audition for the upper level choir went well and i got in. :D
Forum: Self Harm April 7th 2014, 10:23 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

One day...
Forum: Self Harm April 5th 2014, 04:59 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Back to day one..
Forum: Self Harm April 4th 2014, 04:50 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

Tomorrow would've been 50 but zero now...
Forum: Self Harm April 3rd 2014, 02:52 AM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

6 weeks 6 days....
Forum: Why Me? April 1st 2014, 11:35 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

Why do i get jealous over the littlest things..
Forum: Self Harm April 1st 2014, 11:33 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

47 days... this is getting harder
Forum: Why Me? April 1st 2014, 04:29 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 332,186
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Screaming thread.

-If I have this fucking headache when I wake up tomorrow I will be so pissed. Had it for 4 days straight now
-Why does anyone even bother being my friend. I really don't get it i'm worthless as a...
Forum: Goals and Ambitions April 1st 2014, 04:25 AM
Replies: 9,550
Views: 319,136
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Goal of the day!

Tonight:
Get some sleep
Tomorrow:
Switch to new glasses
Get out of bed
Go to school and try to not have a panic attack then walk home
Don't cut..
Forum: Food and Recipes April 1st 2014, 04:21 AM
Replies: 5,337
Views: 195,205
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What's for dinner?

Potstickers :D
Forum: Self Harm March 31st 2014, 03:08 PM
Replies: 1,676
Views: 70,484
Posted By Lumos.
Re: How are you beating Self Harm?

I dont even know how i haven't hurt myself, but ive been listening to music and watching tv
Forum: Why Me? March 31st 2014, 03:01 PM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

My head hurts and been of the verge of having a panic attack all day.
Forum: Good Days! March 31st 2014, 02:56 PM
Replies: 1,489
Views: 50,302
Posted By Lumos.
Re: What have you achieved today?

Ive talked to people and at least pretended im alright
Forum: Good Days! March 31st 2014, 02:52 PM
Replies: 11,846
Views: 385,251
Posted By Lumos.
Re: I'm happy today because...

I woke up semi easily today..
Forum: Self Harm March 31st 2014, 02:49 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

6 weeks 4 days :)
Forum: Self Harm March 29th 2014, 11:26 PM
Replies: 20,906
Views: 656,922
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Self harm free!

6 weeks 2 days
Forum: Why Me? March 27th 2014, 03:39 PM
Replies: 10,337
Triggering: Complaint of the day
Views: 308,741
Posted By Lumos.
Re: Complaint of the day

my best friend told me we can't hang out until summer..
I really don't want to live.
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