My girl comes home from her signal-less middle-of-nowhere holiday tomorrow. I'm so excited about being able to text whenever I want again.
And and and I'm going down there on Sunday until Saturday. SO EXCITED.
Make it Sunday already, I want hugs NOW.
<3

I have to go to my grandad's today. Brother and I are dropping off a card for my cousin's birthday. It's not that I don't want to go. Well it is. It's just that after everything that happened I don't feel comfortable around them, especially without my dad. And I'm still having nightmares about them. Dad told me that when everything was sorted out, the nightmares would go away. And they haven't. It's my cousins birthday and she's 19 today (WTF I remember her turning 11!) so I know that going

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i want to give up on quitting cutting,and just on life.. i have gone 9 almost 10 days without cutting..but i may cut later i want to so bad.. today my dad noticed the cuts on my arm,i told him lies..i don't think he believes me ..i think he will find out soon,he wants me to tell him if something is bothering me but i just can't..

i was so depressed today,a teacher at my school noticed ..

i am thinking about commiting suicide..i even have a plan..i am sorta scared, i think...