I woke up this morning thinking about suicide. All I could think of was ways to make it look like an accident. I didn't say anything though. Instead I went to school and acted like nothing was wrong. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't keep hiding it and acting like nothing's wrong when all I want to do is cry. I just want one person to ask if I'm okay and stop assuming that just because I'm smiling there's nothing wrong. I just wish that I felt happy. I blame myself for not being happy. All...

hi, i am new on teenhelp , and well, i just wanted some advice on a couple of things, they may sound silly, but they are important and a big deal to me.
anyway i wont reveal much about me except my name is Georgia and i am 13.
thankyou for reading and i hope you will be able to help me with anyway problems i may have.

We occasionally have those good things happen..i passed my lifeguarding course which i am soo happy about!
But then bad things happen again, the depression kicks back in, the urges come back... sometimes it makes me wonder if the good things happen just so it hurts more when you come crashing back down to earth. It makes you realise that nothing good or bad lasts forever, but the bad things just keep coming back....

I can't do this anymore..... cut cut cut, pills pills pills..................