I'm browsing the forum aimlessly, trying to put off going to bed and turning off the light because that'll be when the emotions hit. I feel numb right now, and numb is how I'd like to stay.

Things seem to affect me so easily and I don't know why. Some stupid thing on a forum and I'm distraught. An invite out turns into a massive row. A shopping trip and everyone's in tears.

I'm useless. And I'm horrible. And I don't deserve to live.

You know those days... the ones that make you want to end it all there and then...the ones where everything that happens feels ten times worse than it actually is. The ones where you want someone just to hug you and tell you it will be okay... someone to just talk to you and listen... your family to care about you and actually want you here....... ,i don't ask them for much just for them to love me......