My Dearest Blade,

I can feel you looking at me, I can feel you stare from your drawer, you want to be free from your home, you are good, you want to help me! I'm denying you happiness, I'm punishing you for doing all you know, all you ever have done, I even feel sorry for you, a fucking blade.

What's wrong with me? I need to cut but I can't, I need food but I've eaten too much already today, I can't keep busy, there's nothing to do to be distracted, I'm such a loser,...

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It's so stupid, I don't even know why i am so nervous about going to Paris!
I get to go and play music there which is great, but it's the people i have to put up with and the fact that i can't cut as i'm sharing a room with 3 other people. I don't know if i can do it anymore >_< What do i do if i get really triggered?!
I'm freaking out and i know it's pathetic but i can't stop....

It's been a really good day : )
My foster parents (Bill and Debbie) have taken in another kid ! His name is Jamie, he's 5. So far he's not talking very much, only to me ! : ) Hopefully soon he will get more comfterable with everything. He doesn't know about me or my situation, and I'm going to keep it that way for a while.
I know this is going to sound stupid because I just met him, but I feel like he's my little brother, and I have to protect him from people like my real brother...