*trig* Lost in my own head
Posted June 13th 2012 at 05:21 PM by escape♥
I don't think I can do this anymore. This eating disorder is controlling my life. Constantly blocking out the thoughts, the feelings, the urges. Constantly making sure I'm eating, making sure no one knows. I'm so done. I broke down and purged my breakfast earlier. I felt so much relief, but immediatly regretted it.
I talked to my dad about having problems again, and I emailed my former psychologist. Hopefully going back to therapy. I thought I had beat this. I guess I was wrong. Nothing matters anymore. I feel so low. Why me? Why am I so fucked up? The cutting, the bulimia, the depression. It all tears me and my family apart. This is not worth it. Maybe if I was dead everything would be better.
But I doubt it. All I want is to be THIN.
Make it stop.
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Posted June 13th 2012 at 10:37 PM by Coffee. -
Posted June 13th 2012 at 10:47 PM by shebby -
Posted June 14th 2012 at 12:29 AM by escape♥