TeenHelp - Entries for July 2010

Airplanes. Life. Everything.

Posted July 26th 2010 at 07:50 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck

“And the colours of these roads are matching the rainy sky, we’re too blind to see what’s really here in front of our eyes. And I hope someday, this will all reverse, and send us back to the times before. Before we grew up and lost the novelty of clear blue skies and climbing trees, can’t you see what our lies have come to be?”

Things are so much more complicated now. The most...

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Love? What love?

Posted July 20th 2010 at 10:38 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck

There are some things you just don't want to talk about. Or know about. Or think about. Mostly because they hurt. Or because they hold bad memories and thoughts that will only lead to bad things.
Or maybe it's just due to bad experiences.
I mean, take love for example. I despise talking about it because to be honest, I don't really believe in it.
I mean, I know you can love your family and your friends, but when it comes to being IN LOVE with someone and being destined for them...

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Don't you just LOVE being proved right? -_-

Posted July 15th 2010 at 04:31 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated July 15th 2010 at 07:01 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck

I knew I had good reasons not to trust anyone.
That voice in my head telling me that the ones who make me tell them everything are only doing so in order to use it against me later.
"No." I told that voice "If they were really just acting then they'd never tell me anything and they do!" Wow that just shows how wrong I was. Just...URGH there is so much I could just rant about now but no. I don't want to upset anyone. So I'll just keep pretending, as usual, that it's...

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What's with the judgement?!

Posted July 8th 2010 at 02:48 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck

I was kind of looking forward to one last visit to my old school to see my friends after the summer before I start college. Now I'm not sure I'm even going to go.
I never really considered the possibility that someone I cared about could actually judge me. I was having one of those random comment-conversations with a friend Scott last night. In it I mentioned that I had an almost-half-girlfriend (SO complicated at the moment, we're trying to work it out) and he said that wasn't...

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Slight accident...

Posted July 6th 2010 at 04:51 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck

I'm sitting right now on my bed with my duvet around my shoulders. It's cosy but the weight of it on me hurts SO much.

It's so typical, we went the whole holiday without any accidents -apart from my dad getting a small bruise from being on a red-route cycle track- and as we were cycling to the car to attach the bikes to the roof and go home, I fell.
Well, more flew than fell

And I don't even know what happened. Some friends think it was a suicide attempt and...

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Going home.

Posted July 4th 2010 at 10:35 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck

As the title suggests I'm headed back home tomorrow.

I don't want to go, I know that no one ever wants to go home from a holiday but I love it here so much. It's like a second home, we've been coming here for so long. It's so beautiful and natural. I can't stress how much I love it.
I don't know if it's the idea of going home and facing everything again that's doing this but I've been so ridiculously suicidal the past few days and it's really starting to bother me. Whereas before...

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xD

Posted July 2nd 2010 at 01:21 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck

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Squee xD

Posted July 1st 2010 at 11:43 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck

I be happiness today xD

Despite being horribly triggered by literally nothing for the past 4 or 5 days, I'm finding it almost not too hard to stay distracted

A very special person I've been friends with for a long time finally was totally honest with me. We never acted like friends anyway

<3
That same friend left for a short holiday earlier, not without lecturing me on the dangers of:
- Not looking where I'm going whilst cycling with...

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