And I've learned, yet again, why it's a bad idea to put your trust in people.

They just lie to you.

At least if I were alone I could struggle more but not have to deal with the fact that I mean so little to people they can just mess me around all the time and know I'll go back to them. :/

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To everyone who is suffering from the awful disease of homophobia. We want to help you.
People need to be more aware of this disease and the symptoms that come with it.

One of the symptoms commonly associated with Homophobia is a very unpredictable problem called "being an arsehole." Unfortunately, controlling this symptom is immensely difficult as those around people suffering from this often feel inclined to annoy them more. However, a nice couple of hours spent...

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Let me start with: I do not believe in the bible or organised religion and I am not trying to offend anyone, it's just my opinion.
Anyway, a bible basher came to the door.
Apparently this person can tell you what happens when you die and how to be happy.
"God never causes what is wicked." So God created all humans. God therefore created Hitler. Hitler was obviously a good man, then.
It also says that "...this promised future includes perfect health...

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The wedding was beautiful. The bride had the most perfect dress, my cousin looked amazing in his kilt. My aunt and uncle came up from England so it was amazing to see them again. And as we were leaving my uncle had hugged me and was holding my hands, looking straight at me, and just asked me to please look after myself. No better way to induce tears, I had to bite my lip so hard because he looked so worried and upset. It was so good to see them again, and my aunt was beautiful.
But cheesiness...

It's been such a long day, it's only 5, and it's nowhere NEAR being over yet.

Saw the doctor this morning, had a long talk with her and explained everything that's happened in the past year or so in terms of doctors and psychiatrists and stuff and why I was so confused because every different doctor says something different and tells me I have a different problem. So she said she thinks I should try a different kind of antidepressant for two weeks, and then go back to get the dose...

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That's right, ladies and gents. Yesterday was six weeks since I last.. how do I put it. Since I last broke skin intentionally. I'd say cut myself, but I do that all the time without meaning to. I'd say hurt myself intentionally, but I did that about 5 weeks ago.
Basically it's 6 weeks free and those 6 weeks have flown. I think it's a good thing that I don't even really think about it much and haven't been eating less or wanting to overdose instead. I'm actually quite proud of myself if you...