i relapsed again yesterday.. i feel pathetic because i had made it through the other urges the couple days before that, and then i gave up. i missed it though. honestly i want to do it again today. i know i shouldn't but today was such a shitty day. Had a panic attack because of too much noise at school. Happened quite a lot recently, like all the sudden i can't take all the people talking and laughing at once and i freak out.. then got called fat slut on the bus yesterday, which didn't help me