Some stuff got crossed of my "waiting to be done" list.

Bedroom - unnaturally clean. Everything has been tidied/put away/now has the surface showing. So two desks - now with accesible desk tops. Two chests of drawers (one's big, one small), now with much less junk being displayed. Two bookshelves, pretty much the same because I'm fairly tidy about my book storage. Plus I put my clean clothes away. And I even vaccuumed. It kept me busy for about three hours yesterday afternoon,...

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Yes, still exhausted.
Showered and brushed my teeth last night though, and need to clean my bedroom over the weekend.

Texted my Dad to find out if he's still taking us to the fireworks display, no answer so I rang his place, no answer so I rang Mum's - my younger brother answers - "Are you in hospital? Or that other place? Or - " and I'm like, "I'm at home, I just want to talk to Mum!". Ffs, he's such an arsehole. Anyway, it turns out, younger brother has...

Okay, I'm in a bad mood now. As usual, it's all thanks to mother.

So tonight, I finally got around to getting my traditional Japanese wooden shoes (geta) out of my closet, along with the matching Japanese socks. I put them on, and then I put on the kimono dress Jon bought me. No pants, just the dress, which cuts off just above the knee. Jon has been asking me to try it and see how it looks with the traditional shoes and socks, and I thought it was cute. I went to my mom's room to...

This week has been horrible,i've been in such a bad mood. I have snapped at the people I care about. I've been feeling so bad. They've been really understanding though. This has just been at school, at home my parents think im oh so happy and doing good. But no. Im not. My friends are worried about me. At lunch today I just sat there with my head down, I was almost in tears. My friend L, whenever someone asked whats wrong with me, would just say “She's tired”. I was just gonna sit there and not...

This year has been really hard for me. My dad is really hard on me and he didn't seem to care. I did start cutting and so did my friends. My friends were in this love triangle and I got pulled into it, not wanting to. My dad wanted this perfect daughter that I couldn't be. It felt like he didn't love or care about me. I did think about killing myself. Every time I thought about it, I had to think about what others would think. I still have no idea what kept me here or why I am still here. Then a...

Went to bed at about 11pm last night, because Tristan stayed up talking. He's a nice guy and all, but I was tired and I had a headache. So he went and slept in his car, and I went to bed and slept. For the most part.

Got up at about 10am, pulled on some clothes, had a smoke, and went to probation. Which went alright, but my probation officer said it was obvious that I was tired, and grumpy. Luckily she only made me stay for about 10 minutes, which meant I didn't have to struggle through...

To the point that today I had a fairly massive headache, and could not for the life of me fall asleep and have a short nap to sleep it off. Fml.

Tristan came over. Did his washing, had some food, went and got Luke, returned, left again, they'll be coming back later and we're going to play pool. I'll go, because I don't want to be rude, but in all honesty I feel like somebody bashed my brain.

I'm over feeling like this. Over the exhaustion, over feeling low all the time,...

I wake up around 7 every day, open my door so the cat can leave and go toilet or drink from random places if he so desires, and then get straight back into bed, where I spend the next few hours trying to decide if it's worth getting out of bed, having a drink, eating something, putting on clothes that aren't pyjamas, and rolling a smoke.

Usually I get out of bed around 11, when staying in bed any longer seems slightly ridiculous, and in case somebody comes to visit, I want to look...