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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
I hate you for how you've wormed your way in to my life, and how you've treated me so poorly. I just want you to know that all those times I've tried to do what is right, you've pushed it away, so now, I'm just concerned with you staying the hell away from me.
"One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful." ~Sigmund Freud
I just want to scream. the voices are getting more and more fucking powerful and it's so hard not following what they say. I feel like i'm trapped on an island all by myself with only the voices to keep me company
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
I just want to cry. Im stressed and sick and i miss him. I just remember when we were younger and when i got sick he would alway come over and cuddle with me.
I haven't done that because if it hasn't worked in the last 2 years, I don't see much point to continuing it. I'm sure you'll be on me about something. I did most of what I was supposed to and didn't see the point of the rest of it. Not to mention we have bigger stuff to deal with now.
Considering I have to function tomorrow, I would LOVE to not be nauseous and sick
Why do I never want to go when it finally gets here?! And, please don't let me get sick. I got the email, I assume I have an appointment.
Medicaid has me paranoid again. 2 people told me this new person takes it, but I can't find her in the directory. Hopefully it's just outdated. I'll probably have to call closer to the appointment and double check now UGH! If I show up, you're wrong, and I can't afford my appointment, I'm blaming you! Of course, they take it, and they aren't listed in there either.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; April 21st 2017 at 07:37 AM.
You know what really bugs me? Rude people who jump straight to yelling at the world before trying anything else first. So someone is parked in your way? Why not ask them if they wouldn't mind moving so you can park up? Why do you have to park and then storm over to them and shout at 11pm that they're in the way? You don't know who they are. You shout at them and they can follow you up to the flat you share with us and knock you flat out. Be polite. The whole world isn't out to get you. You're just so egocentric that you think everything has to be about you all the time.
And if you've legally gained the right to drive on public roads the least you could do is do it safely. Speeding will get you hurt or locked up one day and you're going to deserve it. You're an unsafe driver. It's horrible but something needs to happen for you to realise you're in the wrong. Saying don't lecture me because I won't change is a problem. You're not putting yourself only in danger but innocent people who are unfortunate enough to be on the road with you too. You're an inconsiderate human being. I can't stand it.
She did a lot of her shit to herself and isn't even trying to help herself. Everybody goes running, enables, and bends over backwards while she does NOTHING but complain because the world completely revolves around her, no one can have it worse than her even when they do, and everything we could possibly do will never be enough.
Meanwhile, if I acted like that I'd be killed by the same people who put up with her. My entire world falls completely apart through no fault of my own and I was left to my own devices. Nobody came running, nobody enabled, and they sure as hell didn't bend over backwards or drop everything to listen to me bitch. In fact, it was the total opposite. I found the support I needed and pulled myself together on my own because I didn't get a choice! Why can't she do the same thing?! Age is only an excuse to a point, and considering how long she could be here, "tolerating it" doesn't seem like my best option, even if it's the only one I really have.
I know you like to be positive, but it feels like you're denying the seriousness of it. I know you don't like to think about this meaning that it's getting worse. Problem is that that's exactly what this means. You need to acknowledge the reality of your situation.
Here we go again, only this time you won't be there. If I'm lucky I can get a new person; in a month.
Just because I know how badly I need to go doesn't mean I want to.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; April 22nd 2017 at 08:24 AM.
I'm less okay with this than I thought I would be. Hopefully you stayed close because following you is seriously a viable option.
Hormones are completely evil, benefits and welfare aren't a fucking picnic, and I hate humanity.
I'm 2 categories more disabled than I thought I would be. Good news is that I don't have to wait for services, the problem is that this is bittersweet as fuck.
It's official, he triggers the shit out of me. Next summer when I have to deal with him in person while also having to tell everybody who hasn't seen me in years that I will never be able to do what I was trying to do when they saw me last. is going to be a complete fucking nightmare.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; April 25th 2017 at 06:12 PM.
Just a regular complaint and passing thought more than anything...
I bet I'm going to be the only person who ends up submitting a really poor assignment. I really just don't get it at all. It's so difficult to understand how to link everything together, I feel like I'm going to end up failing. it's only 10% but it makes me feel like a complete failure when I can't do these things. The exam is worth 50%, I know I should worry more about that but I can't help but feel like I'm going to be seen as a failure by everyone because of it.
I fucking resent having a sleep disorder on nights like this. I can't believe I forgot to take my fucking medicine until 2 hours too late. So now my options are to stay up/try to sleep but fail 2 more hours until I'd normally take round 2, and hopefully get 4 hours of sleep. Or take it now, at 4am, set an alarm for 7 so I can take fucking birth control but probably throw up for interrupting sleep.
And no matter what it'll be too late when I get up to take my day med, which probably won't do shit to keep me awake anyways after such a terrible god damn night. I can't win. God help anyone who tells me how tired they are tomorrow.
"We all have battle scars, Finn. Suck it up and build a brace for yours."
Had a dream about C AND J and I don't want to be awake and in public right now. Strange as it sounds I want to go back to sleep to have better dreams. Or at least escape reality. What kind of horrible things are you saying about me?
I don't know who did this to us, but I'm not sure I even want to know. I just want to be left alone, and I have no idea why that's so hard for people to understand.
"One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful." ~Sigmund Freud