As it gets closer to Christmas, my family reminds me how I ruined their Christmas last year, and how I better not ruin it this year.

Recap: Last year. I was angry. I was bitter. I was depressed. But mostly angry. I withdrew myself from everyone in the family. Christmas morning everybody went to open their gifts. I tried to stay in bed, but I got pulled out. They wanted to take pictures to see our faces. My sister Katie got money, my sister April got perfume and her special movie,...

So, this week is Christmas. I have all my presents bought, very thing is wrap and under the tree. It should be a very happy time. But as I look around my HOME all i want to do is cry. everything is packed up except for what we really need. Everything is in boxes. We are being evicted. We missed June and Julys rent payment because my soon-to-be mother-in-law was unemployed during the summer. So now....at CHRISTMAS the landlord is evicting us.

My uncle is sick. Months ago he was drinking...

I remember it clearly. I wish I'd never have gone to my psychology teacher now. She was right. I don't deserve to go to uni. Why should she predict me grades I can't possibly achieve? I was 5 marks off a B I should have just accepted that was It she basically told me I wasn't good enough. The worst part is I knew she was right. I didn't tell her my reason. I was crying my eyes out afterwards. My friend tried...

Why am I doing this? I've barely eaten. I feel dizzy. Why can't I stop exercising?

Might get an appointment to see a dietician. That's what my counselor said. I'm scared. I have more weight to lose. I'm not thin enough for them to tell me what to eat.

I wrote this a couple weeks ago.

She always tries to be her best,
But they scrutinize her every move,
She tries to be nice,
They say she's a bully,
She tries to get good grades,
They're never good enough,
She tries to be good at things,
They say she messes it up,
And by "they" its always just herself,
Thinking she's never good enough

I hope everyone likes it.

Ok over the past year ive learned this about getting girlfriends presents.
1)if its something a guy would want she probably dosent want it.
2)if you get her something expensize-bad idea
3)get her something unexpected.
4)if its something a guy would want she probably dosent want it.
5) you cant go wrong with a gift card
6)if its something a guy would want she probably dosent want it.
7)if you get her a shirt where you can see some boob shes going to throw...

OK hi this is my blog about sex and relationships. Mostly. I decided that once every month im going to have an entry similar to this one and it could be about anything.

Ok so since this is the daily life of average person here is what me the average person sees in the average world this december.

1) Ok its christmas time and all people think about is presents not family and friends.
2)In December people will spend hours at the stores and about 20 minutes with friends...

Feeling Sad. Embarassed.
Why always me?
It's selfish right? To feel this way.
It's not fair.
How can I face them?
How can I face Monday.
A week today. Fuck.
Too many people know
Too many people will know
They'll laugh
They'll think I'm stupid.
Maybe I am.
Well. I have to be.
Banned from wearing it. I think.
Want to anyway. Who cares if they take another?
I do.
I know I do.
It was my pride. My joy....

What?
Why are you staring at me?
I'm only smiling?
Oh, what for?
What not for? I'm fighting.
For what?
For everything.
Like what?
Like you.
Why you?
Why not?
Why do I care so much?
Because when I don't, I know you can fall apart.
Thank me?

No, thank you.

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