Hey guys this my first writing that I like please give me your honest oppinion.

I am not me
By: Emily W.

I woke up today and I looked in the mirror and realized I am not me. When I looked in the mirror I saw a sad and wasted little boy. When I went to school and failed a test I realized I am not me. When I went to a party and got drunk, I realized I am not me. When I got in a car with a buddy who was drunk, I realized I am not me. I am not me, I don't fail tests,...

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I've just had this on my mind for a while so I thought I would vent to anyone who reads this.

Back when me and my friends, Amanda and Brooke, where in 8th grade, we made and pact or a promise. We all said that we were going to be abstinent until marriage, mainly because Brooke's cousin got pregnant and she was in high school.

Fast forward to now, we are 18 and seniors. Well, Brooke broke that promise a few days ago. She did "it" with her boyfriend of two weeks....

I've failed... last night in bed I cut... I couldn't stop myself... I was in the dark and I had to imagine the blood but it felt so good... now I feel shit! I've let myself and everyone else down... but I just can't do it... I can't feel good when I don't cut... but I feel the same when I do... but the release, it feels like an orgasm, good at first and then just bad... I'm no good at life... I hate it and I'm not in the mood for talking but I have to go and work ... i wish i was at school,...