Should never have sent that text. Should never have said anything to her. Said to much. She hates me now. Well congratulations Emma, thats another thing that you have messed up.

Can't stop thinking about the past. I'd give anything for things to be how they were. To have her back in my life. To have my dad here and not with that idiot. To see her happy again. To have not started self harming. To have never told her about this.

Can't stop these thoughts. I can't control...

Feel so low right now. Don't care about anything anymore. resorted to pills this morning at like 4am just so i could sleep. Took to many but oh well who cares.
Think i'd have probably just walked infront of a car or something last night if it wasn't for someone amazing. Thanks beauitful, you know who you are. <3
Feel so dizzy and fuzzy. Just want to hide away and sleep. Preferably never getting up again. Feel so pathetic and horrible. Want to feel something other than this pain. Wanttogobuypills....

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I don't care anymore and neither should you.
May just go a walk in the dark to the main road walk infront of a car or something anthing just for this to fucking stop. Want to take more pills. Probably will don't care anymore

I'm so confused about myself right now. Perhaps I'll just stop thinking. Perhaps I'll forget about it all and if I end up killing myself or cutting or starving then I'll have to start thinking again. How can things keep swinging from good to bad and back to good again? Is it just hormones? I swear to God I hope this is just hormones.

My nan gave me a letter today basically of things she's always wanted to say to me but has never known how. Some of the things that she said really opened my eyes to everything and made me realise i have to change the way I am at the moment, the one paragraph that keeps going through my head is this: 'Charlotte, I wish you knew how proud I am of you; there is going to be a day soon when I am not going to be here to tell you this but I need you to remember that. You are going to go far but...

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I've been missing Jimmy a lot lately, especially since I decided on joining the reserves and such. Jimmy was killed on his 4th and final tour last year. He wasn't even supposed to be on the tour, He went in his friends place cause his friend had a baby on the way. He stepped on a IED.
I don't know, This song makes me sad and happy. If that makes sense. :\

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
It's sucks. It will be my birthday in a couple hours and I have to go the hospital.
I lost my only friend, but gained my ex of four years. We are completely starting over.
And you know what??? I hate it.
Alan, was my only friend he taught me everything. He was my love and strength. I would give up Bryan(boyfriend) for Alan. Alan doesnt have a place in my heart. He became my heart.
My Family situation. I feel like I don't belong...