I don't know what to do right now. After that argument last night. I was this close to killing myself. And every time he said those words I died a little inside. I don't want him to leave me. I want the certainty we had before. I hope I get that back.

But do I still carry on? Can I do it on my own?

ive been dating this guy and we have decided to have sex hes i worreid btoiu how much it will hurt because hes like really big and i dont know if my cherrys poped. i also dont know hw much ill bleed and do i really have to take the pill for the fortst time my boy friend has had sex before so i dont thignk hes goignto hurt me. but i dont want to have bad sex with him this will be my first time and i belive my bf will be on top. what shoudl i do to learn how to please my parnter in sex and not get...

so the one time i posted on my blog, no one commented, i want some feedback!
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