Feeling a bit shit. Don't know why. I don't want to go to school tomorrow, can't face all those people, could cope with 1 or 2 but I haven't any friends in any classes tomorrow and I'm not up to it.
I know I promised to to feel down but I can't help it... I know I shouldn't feel like this and I'm being pathetic and I'm lucky to have the friends I do, but I can't help but feel so embarressed about it.
Please don't judge me, I knew my promise was going to be hard and at the time I did...

Typed out a huge blog. Then just deleted it. Don't really see the point. Noone cares, even i don't care about me. Ergh why do i even bother to fight this. CUTCUTCUTCUTOVERDOSECUTCUTCUT

Everything is so hard for me lately, my bf is going through a really hard time with illness in his family and i know i need to be there for him and to support him; but then i can hardly look after myself and support myself at the moment let alone support him too. I'm trying my hardest but i feel like i'm not helping at all.
With everything thats going on with him at the moment i'm so selfish...

I have to leave for college in 20 minutes. It's taken me the past almost half hour I've been up to make myself get dressed and ready.
I can feel it happening again. Started thinking of different ways to get out of college. Still am. But I can't.! SAAS haven't even approved my course funding yet. And they've moved the required attendance up to 95% which is ridiculous.
I thought it'd be better this year. Because I actually like the course and how much freedom I have over it. There's...