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I'm not good with words (triggering)
Posted July 30th 2012 at 12:16 AM by Ennui.
I'll never be good enough. I'm NOT good enough. I question every little thing I do and it's just not right.
I get scared when people ask me for advice because a lot of the time I'm not in the right state of mind to do it, or am scared I won't have the answers and then they'll get upset, but I just can't say no.
I'm never going to be smart enough. Someone will always be so much better than me and get all the attention and I'll be left in the dust. They'll be the ones to succeed, not me.
My friend posted a picture of her on the scale and how low her weight was. Oh God, how I wish I could have that. I always wonder what it'd be like if I could get that low of a weight, and I hate to say it but I'd feel prettier.
I'm in denial, or at least part of me is. I told my therapist "My mom can't know about my cutting or she'll punish me. I don't go to deep, I make sure it doesn't get infected, I'm FINE."
I wish I could cut all up my arms without someone yelling at me.
Better yet, I wish people would notice something is wrong.
I'm never going to succeed in life.
I get scared when people ask me for advice because a lot of the time I'm not in the right state of mind to do it, or am scared I won't have the answers and then they'll get upset, but I just can't say no.
I'm never going to be smart enough. Someone will always be so much better than me and get all the attention and I'll be left in the dust. They'll be the ones to succeed, not me.
My friend posted a picture of her on the scale and how low her weight was. Oh God, how I wish I could have that. I always wonder what it'd be like if I could get that low of a weight, and I hate to say it but I'd feel prettier.
I'm in denial, or at least part of me is. I told my therapist "My mom can't know about my cutting or she'll punish me. I don't go to deep, I make sure it doesn't get infected, I'm FINE."
I wish I could cut all up my arms without someone yelling at me.
Better yet, I wish people would notice something is wrong.
I'm never going to succeed in life.
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