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I'm trying.

Posted July 18th 2015 at 02:09 PM by Ennui.
Updated July 18th 2015 at 03:59 PM by Ennui.

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Constantly in a state of tired and depressed or anxious.

I somehow opened up to my coworker about how I am feeling and how I am doing and how I am on meds. Well, I didn't tell him that I cut. I just said depression and anxiety have been acting up lately. He agreed to not tell my dad but based on how I am feeling he really wants me to call my APRN.

I don't know if it'd be worth it. She can't really do anything. I can't go in to see her because I work and she can't adjust my meds without me seeing her regularly so I don't know what the point is.

I don't know what the point of this blog is either. Triggered a lot or sleeping a lot or just existing. I just exist. I just float.

I want school back.

Gaining so much weight. Clothes don't fit right anymore. Fat fat fat.

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1. 	Hey Dezi! I'm sorry you've been feeling this way. Hopefully once school starts back up things will get better. Until then just hang in there and remember you can talk to me anytime you want! You'll get through this! :)
   	Posted July 18th 2015 at 09:23 PM by Thereishope

2. 	Keep trying, Butter. <3
   	Posted July 19th 2015 at 12:39 AM by obelus

3. 	Keep fighting babe. You got this and you're gunna get through it. I know its hard but you're a fighter and I really, really believe in you. Don't give up okay? PS. You're beautiful.
   	Posted July 19th 2015 at 09:37 PM by Palmolive

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