Christmas was ok. Pretended im happy, and better. It all just seemed like a blur. Too much happy people. I almost tricked myself for a while that i was happy. I don't think im ever going to get better. I wish i was. Felt so low yesterday. ive felt like that all of last week too. I was (somewhat) a little happier for about 2 weeks. I actually believed i would get better. yeah right, i don't think im ever gonna be better or happy.
All i wanted to do yesterday was to be alone and cut. I didnt....

I wrote this a couple weeks ago.

She always tries to be her best,
But they scrutinize her every move,
She tries to be nice,
They say she's a bully,
She tries to get good grades,
They're never good enough,
She tries to be good at things,
They say she messes it up,
And by "they" its always just herself,
Thinking she's never good enough

I hope everyone likes it.