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Posted November 6th 2012 at 04:26 AM by Lumos.
Well i'm doing ok again. It goes up and down, my moods. i'm happy then depressed, then happy again. Its a never ending cycle for me lately. But at the moment i'm ok. As long as i am at least somewhat happy on Friday or Saturday, i have a big choir thing. 
I need to have a happy face on. my dad can't even come to it, he's too busy to work and he "low" on money. Yeah right, he only had 20 dollar bills last week..Well my mom is coming, and maybe my grandma.
I have not cut in 6 weeks and 6 days, or 7 weeks tomorrow. I can't believe i have made it this far.Almost 50 days. It's been hard at times, but i've managed to make it through. I'm beginng to think that recovery is possible, maybe hard but you can make it through the days. I haven't had urges in over 5 days. I think this happened the other time i made it this far, i was with out urges and stuff, then they hit hard. I just have to keep trying.
I don't like the time change. I hate waking up even more every morning, i hope i'll get more used to it soon.
At this time last year, i was doing horrible. I was failing 3 of my classes. This year im passing all of them. Last year i was suicidal I havent been since June. Im doing so much better.
I need to have a happy face on. my dad can't even come to it, he's too busy to work and he "low" on money. Yeah right, he only had 20 dollar bills last week..Well my mom is coming, and maybe my grandma. I have not cut in 6 weeks and 6 days, or 7 weeks tomorrow. I can't believe i have made it this far.Almost 50 days.
It's been hard at times, but i've managed to make it through. I'm beginng to think that recovery is possible, maybe hard but you can make it through the days. I haven't had urges in over 5 days. I think this happened the other time i made it this far, i was with out urges and stuff, then they hit hard. I just have to keep trying. I don't like the time change. I hate waking up even more every morning, i hope i'll get more used to it soon.
At this time last year, i was doing horrible. I was failing 3 of my classes. This year im passing all of them. Last year i was suicidal I havent been since June.
Im doing so much better. 
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First of all. Congrats on how far you've come without self harm! The further away from self harm that you are, the closer you are to recovery. Remember that. Yeah, you're going to have some bad times. But we all have bad days. They're apart of life.
See, you're coming an extremely long way. You're passing classes, you're not suicidal, you're self harm free, and you're doing a choir thing. And although your dad can't be there, your mom and grammy are coming. You're going to okay <3Posted November 6th 2012 at 05:47 PM by Just Peachy.
