relapse. (triggering)
Posted July 9th 2013 at 04:35 AM by Lumos.
I relapsed 15 minutes ago.. The urges got to me. Couldn't handle the voices.. i was trying not to, but then i broke down and was crying, and i gave in.. Cut a bit deeper than i meant, hope its not too deep. I can't stand that i gave in.. Hate myself even more. Just wanted the voices to stop, they did but not for long. Now i'm sitting here in tears, wishing i wasn't so fucking stupid, and ugly.
Can't tell anyone except TH that i relapsed.. if anyone knew, especially my best friend i would feel horrible. Here i go hiding everything.
Want to just run away, or disappear from everyones' memory. Not like it would make any difference in their lives.
hate this.
want to do it again..
don't know what to do.
Can't tell anyone except TH that i relapsed.. if anyone knew, especially my best friend i would feel horrible. Here i go hiding everything.
Want to just run away, or disappear from everyones' memory. Not like it would make any difference in their lives.
hate this.
want to do it again..
don't know what to do.
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Posted July 9th 2013 at 04:42 AM by hocus pocus -
Posted July 9th 2013 at 04:43 AM by Ennui.