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Posted October 14th 2013 at 02:55 AM by Lumos.
i feel so worthless right now.. i cut again yesterday and i hate myself so much for that but then i also want to cut again. i have been feeling so shitty the past couple days, and no one but best friend has noticed. my best friend has cut this week as well and i'm worried about her. her mom took away her phone yesterday (i don't know why yet) but i just hope that she won't again or worse. And i'm like 8 hours away from her, i miss her already.
i keep going between thinking that i want to live and that I want to kill myself. the thoughts of killing myself come up constantly, and they make me physically tired. and i never get any sleep because of it so i'm exhausted all the time. i don't know if i should stay alive. i don't think anyone cares either way
i keep going between thinking that i want to live and that I want to kill myself. the thoughts of killing myself come up constantly, and they make me physically tired. and i never get any sleep because of it so i'm exhausted all the time. i don't know if i should stay alive. i don't think anyone cares either way
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Hey, I'm sorry you're going through this right now. It sounds very hard and, trust me on this one, I can relate. I'm glad that you posted about the thoughts you've been having here, that alone shows that you do wish to live. Is there anyway you can reach out to someone and talk to them about this to get the support you need? Maybe a teacher at school? Or perhaps your best friend?
It's very important that you get the love and support you need and deserve. Remember, even though it doesn't feel like it right now, even though the storm has clouded up so much of your vision that you can't see it happening, this feeling your having will end. Just like every storm ends. Every feeling ends.
In heart and spirit, ~FireHeartPosted October 14th 2013 at 06:35 AM by FireHeart
