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My fault. Blame me! Blame me! Blame me!

Posted November 30th 2011 at 08:12 AM by Hopeyyy

I keep compareing myself to my sister, April.
She is short. Super skinny. Supper pretty. All the girls want to be her friend. Everyboy wants to date her. She is perfect. Aboslutely flawless! Shes the girl everygirl wants to be!
Including me!
I have been starving myself for over a week now. I want to be skinny like April. I want to be skinny. I want to be pretty.
But it isn't working.
Even with me running every few days. Even with me cutting and loseing blood....

Hopeyyy

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I don't want to keep lying

Posted November 29th 2011 at 04:43 AM by Lumos.

Last Tuesday i had a phychiatrist appointment, prescibed me antidepressants/ anxiety pills. Started them today. Didnt want to, they won't help anyways I lied to the phychiatrist just like i do everyone else about wanting/tring to kill myself. Just said no, and tried to look like i would never do that. I just kept on keeping the truth from him. I wish i could just stop lying, and i wish everyone would just forget im alive. Or if i could disapear that would be nice. Im tired of lying. But my parents...

Lumos.

Used to be Don'tForget

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Meh Trig

Posted November 28th 2011 at 08:04 PM by Anatidaephobia

C's funeral was today. End of an era i guess. Just proves to me that nothing good ever lasts. Everyone was talking about the footballer in the news today and how his death was "suspicious" how he had to have some sort of problem and it's such a waste. I felt so uncomfortable. I just wanted to scream. I guess it's not there fault I means they don't know S killed herself.

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Anatidaephobia

Smile :) You're beautiful!

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Speedo

Posted November 28th 2011 at 11:13 AM by Troubled_Heart

Gary Speed.

Legend.
Shaken the whole country up.
Normal guy, had everything, commits suicide.
Painted my nails in memory of him.
A top guy.
Showed me that my depression is ok.
He had a normal day, I watched him on football focus that morning!
Happy
Smiling
Laughing
Has a full day, talks to Robbie Savage and then has a 4...

Troubled_Heart

Used to be Ianto Jones

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Just another selfish pointless blog, don't even bother reading it Trig

Posted November 27th 2011 at 07:57 PM by Anatidaephobia

I feel so empty and numb. I just don't know what I am supposed to do anymore. I'm never going to be good enough. Im so tired of people lying to me and saying that I am pretty. That they'll be there when I need them. That they care about me. I'm sick of all the lies.

I'm sure a little slut. Deserve to be punished. Need pain. Need to feel something. Giving up on life.

Been binging, put...

Anatidaephobia

Smile :) You're beautiful!

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14 weeks cut-free

Posted November 27th 2011 at 06:44 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 09:22 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck

Feels somewhat significant. I'm not sure why.
Honestly I think I'm just counting the days till I get to 15. I only promised to get as far as that.

I've tried so hard not to give in up till now, this time next week I can do what I like. No more promises.

I'm just not ready to give up yet.

I'm sorry.

LlamaLlamaDuck

Llama Lover/Skittle Minion

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Reminder: Maximising your productivity discussions tonight!

Posted November 26th 2011 at 11:00 AM by TeenHelp (Project Blog)
Updated December 17th 2011 at 05:48 PM by TeenHelp

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Reminder: Maximising your productivity discussions tonight!

There are three scheduled discussions on the topic of maximising your productivity in the Chat Room for users to seek advice and share thoughts and ideas! The first discussion will be held at 8pm UK time (GMT/UTC), the second will be held at 8pm Eastern US time (EST), and the third will be held at 8pm Pacific US time (PST). All...

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Liar, Liar, Liar, Liar

Posted November 26th 2011 at 09:55 AM by Troubled_Heart

I don't want to die today that's a lie
I don't want to die today
I don't want to die today
I don't want to die today
I don't want to die today
I don't want to die today
I don't want to die today...

Troubled_Heart

Used to be Ianto Jones

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Posted November 26th 2011 at 02:20 AM by Hopeyyy

I dont know what too do anymore.
I can never stop crying. This is it. This it damn it! I'm done. No more eating. No more sleeping. No more talking.
Kill me.

Hopeyyy

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What if this is it?

Posted November 25th 2011 at 09:24 PM by Anatidaephobia

Today was a good day for once. Randomly dancing with my freinds in my frees this morning :') But still in the back of my mind all I could think about was destroying myself. I'm never going to be good enough. I don't want to do this anymore.

Pills, pills, pills (: Take a few go on Emma you know you can't resist. Just another secret to keep. Another lie to

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Anatidaephobia

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