For a couple hours I was happy.
Now my depression is coming back.......................
I am so alone
I have ruined everything
It is all my fault
I am so so sorry

I cant live like this

Today was a lot better than yesterday. Except that I've eaten too much.

It makes me angry, just how little self control I have.

I wish I could just stop eating.

I feel so bloated and fat right now and I hate it.

Prom tomorrow. I'm trying to act cheerful but I'm terrified. I don't want to dress up in front of people. I want to stay at home in bed.

I might not eat tomorrow. I'll be the thin girl who has so much self control...

I don't know what to think right now.

I don't know how to act.

I don't know what to do.

I'm considering dropping a load of the things I've said I'd do, loads of the writing. And then sitting down and completing the other stuff, so that it's done.

But that takes so much effort.

I just want to sleep.

Baby sitting is cancelled. So I'm going to my sister's singing thing and I don't earn any money.

The cuts are healing, perhaps in time for prom on Tuesday, although I doubt it. Well, they're healed enough to cover them with concealer now.

I've got a new pair of shoes. First pair of shoes I can honestly say I've fallen in love with.

I've done nothing today. Well, I've answered some threads on here, welcomed a couple of people, posted some VMs. But no real...

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I thought yuu were differnt. I thought yuu were there for me but yuu used me. Everyone else left. Yuu arent my friend Alyss. No no I am alone again.
i just want my blodd. Noone else.
Fuck i miss yuu bryan..mfml

Ugh, I just feel fat.

I wish I didn't have them all watching over me.

Eat this, eat that.

Don't eat this, don't eat that.

Lose more. Be perfect. Hurry up. Too slow.

Too fast. Not possible. Scales wrong.

You're perfect.

You look pregnant.

Change.

Don't change.

Hi everone and welcome to my blog.

I've only been a buddy for half a day, less than that even. But I love it! Seriously, this is something to live for, even if nothing else is good.

I love greeting people, leaving VMs, answering unanswered posts. I did most of this anyway, but now I feel more... entitled to? And I love it. I've even spent some time in Chat.

*Grins*