Everything is stressing me the hell out lately.
Put in my holiday requests at work, I needed ten days over June/July and a week in August. Considering I've been doing up to 24 hours in a week despite my 8 hour contract, I didn't think it'd be an issue. But then I find out my holiday for next month was declined because too many people are off. So I talked to my manager and offered a compromise. Instead of going to England on the Friday with my family, I'd stay and work the weekend, even the...

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I can't express how much I am wanting dog. If you didn't notice, I love dogs, they are my dream pet. Sadly I currently don't have dog, hopefully we'll get one this summer- I doubt though.

I've always wanted from what I can remember, from when I could read, I always wanted to read about animals, dogs in particular. I have went to an camp "gone to the dogs", through our local humane society (H.A.W.S). This summer I hoping to get a job at shelter.

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Was doing some thinking yesterday in the shower, because don't a lot of people think in the shower?

I remembered the night I got promoted from 8th grade, basically a graduation but the school didn't call it that because it's only from middle school, not for high school. My family came. Originally, many of them weren't supposed to because we were only allowed a certain amount of tickets, but the person who handled the tickets knew me and liked me so we got more. I wore a dress and...

I don't feel capable of anything right now.

Blogging too.

I just want to tell you guys that I'm okay, even though I'm not okay.

And I haven't cut, even though my flesh craves it.

I'm so far away.

It's so dark inside my head.

I got a one way ticket to the darkness, baby will you join me there?

Right. So I find my perfect family and it gets ripped away from me. Apparently I haven't suffered enough. I am such an idiot. I always tell myself that I won't mess it up this time, but what do I do? Screw everything up. I hate this. Whoever this "god" is that people talk about couldn't have made me anymore of a screw-up. I really want to curl up and die. I just want an escape from this hell.

It's a question that everyone asks, but what is the true answer? Well, I imagine it is different for everyone. To me, life is about compassion for others. It's like the "pay it forward" mindset. Having deep compassion for others is (in my opinion) one of the keys to happiness, for everyone. Think about it, if everyone in the world genuinely cared for one another and helped one another as they should, life on earth would be PERFECT.

Obviously something like this...

Today, May 18, makes one year since my dog, Misty, passed away. Part of me feels really guilty that I was able to go about my day like it was nothing, like I shouldn't be sad. I had set my alarm to wake me up at 9 AM, the time that she was put down last year, but I somehow managed to sleep through it. So I guess maybe writing this will make me feel something? Maybe I'll even cry. But that's okay, because I feel as if I need to today.

Not a day goes by where I don't think of her, though....