So...this week. Whoa!
I don't know what to think really. At the beginning of the week, Jose and I broke up. He broke up with me. He had said so many offending things, whom may offend some of you here, so don't take it to the heart. :
"Things never happen the same way twice."-Him
"Rape victims get raped twice. Things happen."-Me
"It's their fault, think about it."-Him.

He said many other things than that. He sent me a whole...

Wow, had the most wonderful day ever -_-
First of all my tutor had a go at me over the most ridiculous thing ever, and it shouldn't have upset me but it did.
I then thought that things were going to get better and people actually let me sit with them and were talking to me, but no i was wrong, soon enough they all left and started ignoring me. But i was fine with it because i needed to do work anyway.

But the one thing that really got to me, I asked my friend what she did...

This time last year..
You broke my heart.
Tore it apart.
I was screaming at the top of my lungs.
Cussing at my mom.
Crying myself to sleep...
Cutting my whole arm up...
And, wanting to die...


I miss you...

Today has been so horrible, spent all of it alone and wanting to cry.
I cut at school and my head of house noticed >_< I felt so stupid and pathetic.

I want to take more pills and cut...i'm trying so hard to hang in there but failing miserably

I give up.....hi pills...how i've missed you >_<

I don't know what's wrong with me, I feel so alone all this time lately. I'm just slipping more and more...
I really wish I could tell my friends, I need them more than ever right now but i'm scared they won't understand.
I can't hold on any longer, I just was to cut and I don't want to be here any longer...

Gotta get on here more. Gotta get off leave by tomorrow. I can't lose my HelpLINK Mentor position. It makes me happy..

Sometimes I think that I am fighting a losing battle over here.

Didn't sleep well last night. probably got like 3 hours. I normally get like 7 hours. so im really tired..
I just cut again. I didnt even try to stop myself this time. Didnt see any point in trying not to. It doesnt stop me. Now i have to think if i want to lie to every one again. I probably will. I'll just get in more trouble if i tell the truth.

Today i've just lied in bed, been online, and cut. Im so pathetic. I don't have enough energy to get out of bed. All i want...