TeenHelp - Entries for July 24, 2012

What the eff...[triggering] Strong Language

Posted July 24th 2012 at 06:56 PM by escape♥

Tags calories, eating disorder, fuck, guilt, voices

Erghhh. What the HELL did I just do?!!?! I was doing so well. No calories all day..and then. My mom decides to pick up fast food for us and my sick aunt. And my stupid fucking weak self decided to eat.
Sighhh. I know I need it.
Food is Life.
But who care's about living if your fat?

So. Much. GUILT.

escape♥

Happiness is waiting for you<3

Posted in Rampant Thoughts in the Unforgiving Darkness

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I'm not okay. [triggering]

Posted July 24th 2012 at 04:17 PM by escape♥
Updated July 24th 2012 at 04:25 PM by escape♥

Tags depression, eating disorder, fat, low, self harm, self hatred

I don't know how to put into words how I feel. I don't know how to blog about how I'm slowly slipping back into my old ways, into the darkness. I don't know how to tell you that I want to die. I want to never wake up.

I don't know how to tell you that I'm starving again. I don't need food if I'm a fat ass.
I could go into this long rant about my self-hatred and what not,

...

escape♥

Happiness is waiting for you<3

Posted in Rampant Thoughts in the Unforgiving Darkness

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Procrastination

Posted July 24th 2012 at 01:10 PM by goonybug96

Hmmm… It looks like I’m not really that good at blogging on a regular basis… If you looked up “Procrastination” in the dictionary, there would be a picture of me! Although, I have been pretty busy these past few months…

Nevertheless, over this next month I have almost nothing to do (yay!). So, after cleaning, reorganizing, and re-cleaning my room, I found a huge stack of old magazines that I’ve been saving for a couple years. Then I thought to myself, maybe I should actually do something...