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Posted January 3rd 2012 at 01:27 AM by Ennui.
Sometimes my mother makes it really fucking hard for me to tell her shit. No, impossible.
Everything that I do is me playing “a game” to her.
My Self Harm is just me playing a game. It’s just me doing it for attention. Yeah, because I’m going to get fucking addicted to something and do it whenever I feel like shit, which is often, for attention. And then hide it.
My suicidal thoughts aren’t that bad. The school was totally just overreacting when they told you. No, I just have a plan AND pills, even if they’re not strong I’ll be able to end up in the hospital for it and then you’ll see.
My loss of appetite was me playing games. Because obviously me not wanting to eat is because someone else I have met online is not eating so I don’t want to eat either. No, I seriously didn’t have an appetite, thanks for your concern.
You won’t let me hang out with any boys until I’m sixteen. Because the five months and two days until it is my birthday and I am allowed to start dating will really make a difference. Well, what if I told you something? What if I told you that, while I have identified as bisexual in the past, which you don’t know about, I have been doing some thinking. What if I told you I can never see myself with a guy anyway? What if I told you that I think I am a lesbian and will never date a guy, that this has been causing me to feel like shit, that I’ve self harmed over how hard it is to know for certain, but I really think I am? What would you say to that? Would you think that I’m just saying that just to see boys, that it’s just a game?
I don’t know what the hell I should do about her, do any of you? =/ Should I just say it to her? How would I even bring up the fact that her youngest daughter probably is a lesbian, when I haven’t even dated? =/
Everything that I do is me playing “a game” to her.
My Self Harm is just me playing a game. It’s just me doing it for attention. Yeah, because I’m going to get fucking addicted to something and do it whenever I feel like shit, which is often, for attention. And then hide it.
My suicidal thoughts aren’t that bad. The school was totally just overreacting when they told you. No, I just have a plan AND pills, even if they’re not strong I’ll be able to end up in the hospital for it and then you’ll see.
My loss of appetite was me playing games. Because obviously me not wanting to eat is because someone else I have met online is not eating so I don’t want to eat either. No, I seriously didn’t have an appetite, thanks for your concern.
You won’t let me hang out with any boys until I’m sixteen. Because the five months and two days until it is my birthday and I am allowed to start dating will really make a difference. Well, what if I told you something? What if I told you that, while I have identified as bisexual in the past, which you don’t know about, I have been doing some thinking. What if I told you I can never see myself with a guy anyway? What if I told you that I think I am a lesbian and will never date a guy, that this has been causing me to feel like shit, that I’ve self harmed over how hard it is to know for certain, but I really think I am? What would you say to that? Would you think that I’m just saying that just to see boys, that it’s just a game?
I don’t know what the hell I should do about her, do any of you? =/ Should I just say it to her? How would I even bring up the fact that her youngest daughter probably is a lesbian, when I haven’t even dated? =/
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Next time you're on MSN we shall have to talk about all this. Because Chessmaids like to help, and we're good at it.
Posted January 3rd 2012 at 03:08 AM by Storyteller.
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Dez, I'm sorry you have to go through all this with your mother. You're not alone though, you know you can talk to me about anything/everything you want anytime. You know how to get a hold of me.
Posted January 3rd 2012 at 04:30 PM by ilovecountrymusic
